3 months later
Skye:
I forced myself to get out of bed. I had to get Jordan to school and be to work in time. It’s now October. It’s been three month since I ran into Anthony at the carnival. Well I didn’t really run into him but I just saw him there. Either way, it was too much for me to handle to be honest. I never expected to see him again.
I walked down the hallway to bang on Jordan’s door. “I’m already up,” I heard him mumble. I walked back down the hallway to my room. I didn’t tell Jordan that his father was at the carnival. I couldn’t. I just don’t know how Jordan would react to it. I felt kind of bad for not telling him but I just decided to keep it to myself.
The look he gave me was weird though. I remember when I first caught his gaze. He looked bewildered like he wasn’t expecting to see me or something. I mean, I guess it is pretty surprising to see your baby mother you walked out on about 8 and a half years ago. But that’s his fault. He should’ve never walked out of our lives.
As I was in the shower, I had flashbacks of when Chris would dick me down. I rubbed the washcloth between my thighs and thought about how he used to touch me in that area. Making me feel good… Oh my gosh. I need some sex. I was sexually frustrated. That’s why I was so uptight. I need some good dick. If only Chris was here…
Me and Cameron never even came close to having sex. I don’t really think I want to have sex with him. Well it would be some days we would be making out and I get horny but he’s never actually tried to have sex with me. See with Chris he pushed me onto a dresser and pulled my pants down without asking me shit. It doesn’t seem like Cameron would do that. It seems like he would ask and shit before he does it. Would white dick even feel the same anyways?
I shook the thoughts off as I stepped out of the shower. I stared at myself in the mirror as I dried myself off. I gasped when I saw Chris behind me. I whipped around but nobody was there. I put my hand to my chest as my heart started to rapidly beat. Whoa. What was that? I turned the sink on and bent over, splashing water in my face. Wake all the way up Skye. Come on. I stood straight up and looked in the mirror again. “Oh my gosh!” I yelled, quickly turning around. Nobody was there. Am I fucking hallucinating now? I wiped my face with my towel and walked out the bathroom.
I quickly got dressed and ran downstairs. Jordan was already ready, sitting on the couch flipping through the TV channels. “Okay, let’s go sweetie.” I grabbed my purse off the couch. I noticed that Ariel was sitting on the couch with her feet propped up across his lap. “Wait… I forgot you spent the night here sweetie. Come on,” I told both of them since they go to the same school.
Ariel lives with her and Aliya’s mother but she doesn’t like being over there for some reason. So Ariel stays with us a lot. But I think I’m going to have to start monitoring her and Jordan cause they look like they’re getting a little bit too comfortable with each other. They followed me out the house.
As I drove them to school, I was still thinking about how I hallucinated Chris like that in the bathroom. I almost passed out in that daggon bathroom. Why am I starting to hallucinate now? It’s been a little over two years and now I want to start hallucinating. Maybe I need to do something to get me completely over him being gone… like what though? Then having sex with Cameron popped into my head.
