Secrets Of The Heart (Lesbian)

Chapter 5

CHAPTER FIVE

I awoke that next morning spooning with Alex, my body felt like it was on fire next to hers. She was still butt naked and so was I. She looked so peaceful that I was afraid to move with her in my arms and wake her. Her body was so small that I almost covered her completely with my athletic body.

I liked how it felt to just hold her in the stillness but my mind had already been overcrowded with thoughts. What had I done last night? Why did I enjoy it? Does this make me a lesbian? Why had it felt so much better than it ever had with any other man I had ever slept with?

I was so stuck in my mind that I didn’t even notice Alex had woken up and was staring at me, only when she placed her soft pink lips on mine, did I snap out of the trance I was in.

“Morning.” She said, smiling at me.

“Morning.” I replied smiling back.

“Last night was…” she began looking at me as if she wanted me to finish her sentence.

I just stared at her stunned. How was she not confused about all of this?

“It was great.” I finally replied.

“But…” She took the words right out of my mouth.

“But I’m not quite sure what we did was the right thing. I’m so confused.” I admitted. She gave a soft giggle.

How could she find this amusing? Or maybe she was laughing at the expression on my face. I decided to go with the second thought because I knew if it was the first I would burst out of the anger.

“Look, Erin, I understand this is hard for you.” she said with complete seriousness now.

“I just have all these questions about my sexuality now. Why I am only feeling like this now and why did I only act on these urges with you and why are you so calm about…” I was rambling again like I did the first night in the bathroom when Alex interrupted me.

“I’m bi-sexual Erin, that’s why I’m okay with this, but your other questions I can’t answer.”

I was now sitting with my legs pulled towards my chest. I hid my face between my knees.

“You probably think I’m a freak or something.” I mumbled not removing my head.

“No I don’t Erin, I’ve been through exactly what you are going through, the only difference is I was 16 and you are 22.” Alex said rubbing my back.

I liked how her skin felt against mine. It was seductively good, making me feel like I could just pin her down and have my way with her.

'Ugh stop thinking like that.' I mentally commanded myself.

“Why didn’t you tell me you were bi-sexual?” I asked after several moments of silence, now looking up from my knees so I could see her beautiful face.

“Well I was kinda scared to because of the way you acted when I asked if you were a lesbian.” She said sincerely.

“You seem a little disgusted by the thought, but you never really did answer my question. So I knew somewhere deep inside you, you were a bit unsure.”

The fact that she pretended to know me made me angry, but I hid it well.

“So why did you kiss me them if you knew I wasn’t sure?” I asked feeling a little taken advantage of.

“We were on the couch, you were on top of me and your eyes were basically screaming at me to kiss you so I did. If you had gotten up and walked away I would have let you be, but you were the one who gave me the second kiss and you were the one that led me to the bedroom.”