Doubts & Distance

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Kibum PoV

Right after I called Kibum, Minho rushed into the room "Hey! Hurry up and come eat!" "Nope" I said while buttoning up my shirt "Ya, Kibum-a! What are you going to do?! Onew's waiting!" "I'm going to meet Kibum." His eyes widen "What?! Why?!?" "Why not, it's been a long time since we met." "Yeah, because you both argued the whole time and, kinda, broke up! Do you think it'll be better now?!" "Who knows" I said, applied my favourite perfume and walked through the door. Minho started following me "Why can't you listen to me?! Just for once?!" I stopped "WHY?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL?!" He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back "YA! JUST LET ME GO! IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS YOU PUNK!"

I unsnapped my wrist and walked to the front door "I'm off!" I called and rushed to the elevator. Whatever is going to happen this night, nobody can stop me now! I guarantee for nothing!

Minho PoV

"I'm off!"
That was the only thing Kibum told us before leaving without any information where he was going.

"Uhm, what was that...?" The leader asked with a befuddled look "I have no god damn idea, but I'm sick of it!"

I turned around and wanted to go upstairs when Taemin asked "What are you doing?" "I'm trying to clear things up!" "But~" I wouldn't listen anymore! How was it possible that one person could almost destroy a "family"?!

When I was at Jjongs room I tore opened the door. It slammed against the wall and I saw a him sitting on his windowsill totally shocked "YA! LISTEN! DO YOU THINK IT'S FUN TO PLAY WITH US?!" I walked into the room. My blood was boiling with rage "SINCE YOU ACTED LIKE A COMPLETE ASSHOLE FOR MORE THAN HALF A YEAR EVERYTHING STARTED TO GET OUT OF CONTROL!" I stood right in front of him and looked him deep in the eyes "So what?" He asked in a lower voice "Do you really think I don't know what's going on?! That EVERYTHING is my fault?!" he arose and came closer "Fuck! I made a load if mistakes but~"

"BUT WHAT HUH?!" I couldn't hold my anger back any longer "Tse" he replied with a  provoking smile "You came to my room to 'talk' to me and the only things you said the last five minutes were reproaches I already knew. If you try to intimidate me, haha, then... you'll definitely fail. I'm older than you, don't forget that and if your parents bring you up good then start think about the things you throw against somebody's head first, ok? And have a little more respect."

"Wow, I never thought you'll be that tough. The lovely and soft Kim Jonghyun can be a 'hard' person too?"

I started clapping. He was such a pathetic creature I couldn't even look him in the eyes anymore.

He turned around again "Things will be better. I don't know if you all will ever forgive me for this gaffe but always think about, and I really don't try to curry sympathy but, think about you. How would you feel if something very bad happened but you can't talk with anyone about it. What would you do then? If you start drinking and fucking around like me to try to forget all bad just for a few moments and then *snap* from day to day nobody really talks with you anymore, no one cares anymore because they're ashamed of you, how you've changed. But on camera everything has to be fine again, and every god damn time when the camera turns on you know that each smile, every joke, is a complete lie. You have no one to go to. You're all alone and all that, from day to day."

Expressionless I stood still in front of him, well, I never saw it from this point of view but... there's no 'but' actually. I did wrong, no, we did wrong. I can't show him that he was right now first, I need to talk with the others about this.

"Sad story, buhuu, nearly a tear fell out of my eye." I said imitating a crying baby.
"You know, it's not my fault that you started drinking and  fucking every girl around Gangnam. You didn't tell us what was going on and avoided us. What did you think our reaction would be then?"

He didn't share a glance at me and I left the room.

That was intense as hell though. My appetite was completely gone so I told Onew Hyung that I'll just go to my room. Of course they asked me what happened but I just said that I couldn't talk about it now even though it was really important. I needed to clear up my mind as well before talking to them.

This night my mind was totally out of control. The only things who came up were Key and Jonghyun. What did just happen....? It has to be something just between them....but what  was it for Christ's sake...

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Heey! I think that's the longest chapter so far :o !
I know it's very dramatic etc. I hope y'all are okey with it ( ´¬')

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