Doubts & Distance

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Kibum PoV

As soon as Kibum arrived I got into the car without saying a word. It was awkward though because we didn't talk or text each other. . .
"Hey, it's been a long time huh. . ." he said, his look straight through the windscreen "Yeah." I replied with my head down.

Right now I asked myself why I called him again, everything was so awkward and weird
"So tell me, how come you called me again? You didn't sound very happy on the phone." That was a good question actually, why did I call this stupid asshole again?! All I wanted to do was to drink and forget about some things.
"Uhm, well. . .I just, uhm. . .-" "It's ok, I understand."

Huh?! Is he a mind reader or what. . . even if the whole situation was weird as hell it felt good to be recognised again, he always knew when something happened or when I felt like crap. This man always tried to make me happy, tried to put a smile on my face every single time. . .

"Key! I asked you something. You're very absent, maybe I should drive you back home~" "NO! PLEASE!" The last thing I wanted was being at home with the members. . .especially Jonghyun. . .

"I'm sorry. It's been a very tough day though, I just want to drink something." I said. "Okey, if you think so. . ."

We drove over 20 minutes when we finally arrived at the restaurant. It looked very expensive, that was so Kibum, he always wanted me to feel like a King, that I'm the most important person right now he never spares on expense.

I was still standing in front of the restaurant, I couldn't move.
Was it the right decision to call him again?

"Is everything okay? Key, seriously, I'm worried!" He said in a very anxious tone. "I'm alright. Stop worrying about me, let's get in."
I told him and walked straight to the big entrance of the restaurant.

When we get our seats and ordered something to eat he started talking "So, how have you been doing all the time? Are you okay? Did something happened?! I'm really curious!"
He was but I just sat there with an idle glance. I took a deep breath "You know, it happened so much but I don't want to talk about it you know? It's the first "date" after we had our "fight" do you really thought I'm able to act like everything's okay?!"

He was about to answer me when the waiter came with a bottle of sake.

"I understand but. . .when you don't want to talk about it then. . .why did you come?" "I came with you because I thought we have a second chance but unfortunately it doesn't seem like it. I think I should go." I said, stand up and was about to leave when Kibum grabbed me on my wrist "WAIT."
I turned around and looked the tall man straight in his pretty brown eyes
"I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable but, please, try to understand me. You mean so much to me, I'm always worried about you, there was not even one day I didn't think about you. All I wanted was having you in my arms again, lay with you on the couch, watching movies and so on. Please, don't go!"

I was literally overwhelmed. I know Kibum had feelings for me but I didn't expect this.

"Listen." I started in a calm voice "Maybe I don't understand how you exactly feel. . .because,  you know I can't reciprocate your feelings. You mean a lot to me but. . . you know what I mean! The point is, I need time. I want us to be happy again, forget the past but it isn't that easy okay?"

Without any warning, Kibum pulled me into his arms. I felt how everyone started watching us and it was very uncomfortable all of a sudden. I slowly pushed him away from me.

"Do you want  me to drive you home?" "No. Please, I don't want to eat anything, I just want to drink a bit."
"Okay, then, what about a club?" "Sounds good" I said and lightly smiled.

5 minutes later, we were sitting in the car again. We didn't talk and it was silent, but it wasn't awkward at all, it was a pleasant silence.

When I looked on my watch it was already 12am. Yes, I'll be definitely dead tomorrow.

"We're here." The elder said and turned off the motor walked to the other side and opened my door.

The music was loud, I felt the bass under my feet when we came near the entrance. A few people already were drunk and tottering around.

As soon as we were in I went straight to the bar with him. A couple drinks here and there, dancing, music, people, sweat. I felt so good, I danced with random people because I didn't care anymore, just the thought that I was able to forget everything for a moment was unbelievably awesome.

I don't know how many drinks I already had when Kibum said that it would be better when we go now "NO! LEMME GO! I FEEL GOOD, SO FUCKING GOOD!" "Stop acting childish, we need to go home. Come on." "NO! DON'T DRIVE ME BACK HOME TO ALL THESE STUPID SHITS!" I had tears in my eyes and tried to hold them back which was very difficult in my condition "Should I book you a hotel room?" I looked at him with big eyes "No." I whispered and came closer "Take me with you, I want to see how you live." "Oh Kibum stop it." He said and laughed "You know how I live, no need to show you today hmh?"

Right in this moment my mind went black and I felt unbearable lust arise in me. I hugged him and whispered "Please take me with you babe. I missed you. Maybe this will clear my feelings for you. "What are you sa~" he tried to ask when I kissed him.
It felt wrong but yet so good.

The longer we kissed the more it got passionate, tongues were fighting for dominance, hands were touching parts of our body's we'll definitely regret tomorrow.

He was about to touch my private part when I immediately realised what we were doing.
I pushed him away and started running away. My eyes, full of tears, my head more confused than before.

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Hey lovelies! ^^
That's the longest chapter so far o.o
It gets intense right? I hope y'all enjoy the story ^^
Please look forward to the next chapter^^ <3

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