Jonghyun PoV
After I grabbed something to drink, I went back to my room.
"Hmm~ it's still raining. Beautiful." I opened the window and let in the pleasant breeze of coldness which gave me goosebumps. Leaves fell off the huge tree in front of my window, some were caught by the gusting wind and the rest fell down.
"Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby."
"*sigh* I really miss the good old times. . ." I was frustrated. All those thoughts came up my mind good and bad ones but mostly the bad ones.
There's still a strange atmosphere between the other members and me. . .justifiably. I did a load of shit in the past, I was out all night long, drank until I puked the shit out of me and had a lot of affairs.
The trust was gone and I am still the black sheep in our "family".
Right before I closed the window, I took a last deep breath, letting the cold air into my body which gave me a stabbing pain right in my heart.
"Shit~!"
Instantly I fell onto my bed. Exhausted, broken and saddened. The protective wall which I built to seem happy, slowly started to break. I wasn't able to live like this anymore. The whole I-drink-and-do-what-I-want shit is done! I didn't drink for over a year now and they were still mad and treated me like. . .yeah scum actually.
Among these thoughts I started to get tired. Tired of being lonely, tired of being the worst human on earth and tired of being who I am.
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Fanfiction"I'm really happy when I see you moving forward on your self-path. I hope to see this Key in the future too." -Jonghyun
