Having an anxiety attack for like the third time today. Getting paranoid about isis for some reason and I feel like I'm having an asthma attack. My mind keeps telling me that I'm going to have a heart attack or heart burn because I ate a lot of snacks. I want to go outside for some fresh air, but at the same time I feel like I'm going to get raped or my grandma won't let me go outside cause it's so late.
I'm stressed right now, my heart is racing, I want to go to sleep, I want to go home, and I'm scared my grandpa is going to die while I sleep. The more I think about these things, the more frustrated and nervous I am. I don't want to do anything other than what I have listed. My cousin is trying to get me to do something, but I say no. She has no idea what's going on inside me right now.
I'm now annoyed by her actions and wish to be alone. I hate this. I want to go home. I want to see my dad. I want to see my dog. I wish my mom didn't leave me here.
I keep breathing constantly and I'm wheezing. I tried telling my mom, but she didn't completely understand what I was trying to tell her. Lately I haven't been wanting to talk about my problems because I feel like no matter how hard I try nobody will understand me.
No one.
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Anxiety/ My Journal
RandomThis is just my thoughts on a daily basis. I am writing this so that people with these type of problems can know that they r not alone. Also writing this for people who want to try to understand anxiety a bit better.
