Giant signs fade away
Yells come out as whispers
I beg and fight for them to stay
As I watch them fade and wither
I want the thing I fear
I fear the thing I want
The want just will not disappear
Desire's determined to haunt
Tie my hands behind my back
Bind my feet together
But listen for my words' attack
Then we both will face it forever
Can you hear now? Do you see?
Or am I still invisible?
Will you follow my silent pleas?
Or is my pain too typical?
I call out to the deaf
I try to show the blind
That I am living, breathing death
A true flaw of humankind
I am my worst enemy
All my flights end in falls
Air pushes down more heavily
I soared, then stride, but now I crawl
Please understand my lies
They're made by my demon
He's the one who built my disguise
His perfect poison will not weaken
He made me break my own joy
Made my smiles lose their meaning
He still controls me like a toy
Now my eyes have lost their gleaming
He dragged me into shadows
So there I built my home
He tipped my good like dominoes
So in the dark I'm doomed to roam
On my limbs, he tied strings
He took the wheel of my mind
I cannot stop whatever he brings
It's the un breakable contract we signed
His signature's in my skin
Painted permanently
His goal is me, he'll surely win
Until then, he'll battle mercilessly
Can't you see I'm broken?
Broken so unbreakable
On the floor I've awoken
I'm fallen so unshakeable
He pushed me to the ground
Now I refuse to stand
I fought water so I was drowned
If only you'd see my flailing hand
Why am I in hiding
When I just want you to see?
Myself and I won't stop fighting
Is a war zone what I'm meant to be?
He is the air I breathe
An eternal toxic breath
So I beg you do not be deceived
For each breath I breathe is eternal unrest
How do you enjoy the sun
While I'm trapped under clouds?
How do you all so freely run
While I stumble through menacing crowds?
I just want it to end
Is that too much to ask?
No more smiles just for pretend
If you'd see behind my smiling mask
I know you could rebuild
Could make me real again
Breathe new life in what's been killed
I am in pieces that you can mend
I have lost my sanity
Nightmares became reality
Freedom is a fantasy
Will my cries reach anybody?
Maybe as I return to dust
And as you wonder why
You'll see the things that once you brushed
And hear my silence as my cry
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Letting My Monsters Out
PoetryThis is a poem book where you can meet MY monsters instead of June's. If you like June, don't you want to know about the monsters that inspired her author (me) to make her? NO COPYING! If anyone steals any of these poems, I will die in a hole from d...
