He loves me a lot
It's true, I know
Even if pain's the only way he shows
He calls me slut
He calls me fat
Apparently hunger makes that a fact
He leaves for college
But I'm not sad
They say he'll be nicer when he comes back
He says I'm dumb
I mess everything up
But it's all a joke, you see– just brotherly love
She loves me too
Some hurt, but worth it
To see her smile at me whenever I'm perfect
She smiles at my joy
Then laughs at my pain
But she's the older child so I guess it's okay
I'm too clueless
It's always my fault
Of course it is because she is never wrong
Don't mess up
I can see her disgust
But it's all okay, you see– it's just sisterly love
He loves me a lot
I know it's true
It's just past the judging of everything I do
He eyes my sitting
Glares at my eating
Perhaps those things are only for dreaming
No emotion allowed
Not on face, nor in voice
Robot formality is the only right choice
He hints I'm fat too
He thinks that I'm crazy
And he knows best so I just may be
He doesn't care if tears have sprung
He just cares his fight is won
But it's fine, you see– it's just his fatherly love
She loves me most
My pain doesn't return it
She is too good, she doesn't deserve it
She makes my food
She gives advice
She shouldn't have to pay my price
Too much hurt
She'd offer to fight it
Can't happen so every day I hide it
She does so much
Clearly sent from above
But I can't accept, you see– I don't deserve her motherly love
What the hell am I supposed to do?
I laugh at the jokes
I dodge the bloody throws
What the hell am I supposed to feel?
I smile at my pain
I fight my mistakes
Where the hell am I supposed to go?
I use a metal soul
I don't eat it all
How the hell am I supposed to know?
I keep my truths to me
I let the angel free
I do all of this for them
For I love them more than death..
In return I'm forced to starve
In return I get all the blame
In return I get ignored
In return I get an angel that I'll never deserve
In return I get attacked
In return I get mocked
In return I get hearts of snow
In return I get to let the best thing in my life go!
But don't worry about a thing
I'll be fine you see
Because though I'm different people for every single one
This is just my family love...
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Letting My Monsters Out
PoetryThis is a poem book where you can meet MY monsters instead of June's. If you like June, don't you want to know about the monsters that inspired her author (me) to make her? NO COPYING! If anyone steals any of these poems, I will die in a hole from d...
