A SPARKLE OF TRUE LOVE..

*CHAPTER 25*

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Thirst drove me down to the water,
where I drank the moon's reflection.

~ Rumi
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*Orphans are not those who lose there parents orphans are those who have lost their love.*

These words striked at my heart.as I read them on someone's status

It's been 4 months since we came and each day of it I counted with growing agony.

That mere vacation not only transformed my life as a whole but remoulded me in many ways too.

I wasn't talkative back than but I.wasn't silent either as I have become now.

I don't like to continue any conversation nor I have urge to make new friends.

But my silence didn't go unnoticed by my.friends not a day went by that they didn't tried to keep me happy
.In there presence my worries always decreased and that was the only time in the whole day where I would smile or talk properly.I was blessed to have them .

BEING asked for my growing change I refused to open up to them saying it's just the stress of studies and my mother who.had a small accident last month and was adviced to be on bed.for a whole month.
they didn't buy the excuse before but with time and my continuous stubbornness made them believe despite of it they didn't ever left me alone to burn in my sorrows

Everyday
Everyday
My heart craved for love
My eyes seeked for affection
My thoughts wandered for positivity
As I waited for a miracle

With passing time I lost the sparkle in there eyes.
The pride for me in their heart.
The immense love once they had for me..

It hurts it hurts to see them like this..
To pretend they care to pretend nothing has changed..
Can I not see it can I not sense it..
That how far away they have gone from me..
It was not something that serious what would have happened if it were something very serious.

I.was far away from home that is my parents heart with.no map to.guide just struggle to nowhere.

Every word they utter to me shatters me more and more by the dryness of their speech without emotions without affection..Just like a burden of words important to deliver

There speech leaves me speechless

I was indulging in the cave of silence with each passing moment the depth of which looked appealing more than anything

I pray form the deep depths of my heart that no one ever goes through the agony I am going through ever..

Seeing your parents change is beyond the pain one could describe..

Once I didn't ever wanted to go away from them and now I want to run away from the disappointed gazes and never return

Everyday is like a nightmare which finishes to be over but each day's
reality realizes me brutally of its presence..

My father was my hero but didn't I know that not every girl deserves a hero..

My mother was my queen did I forget that queen is the mother of only a princess not some random girl..

Tears had became a lullaby I got addicted to without them sleep never came

From all these painful feelings the most beautiful feeling is that Allah has not left me .He was always there and will always be there..
HE IS my friend a friend who will stay with me forever a friend I don't have to be scared of that it will leave .A friend I will never Part from..
HE IS ALMIGHTY.He Will fix all of it..
HE KNows I can't take it anymore
HE knows I can't break more
Only He knows....Only Him..