Feeling the impossible

Thoughts out loud

Root's POV

I sat up and leaned against the wall,still trying to compose myself.

"Crap..that was..okay that was horrible,it seemed too real.I have got to get a hold of myself.The fact that Shaw woke up and had to wake me up.. " i thought to myself,sighing out loud."She's been very gracious about everything,i feel really bad honestly,here I am just being useless whe-"

"Root hun, you're doing it again" Shaw interrupted me.

"Huh?Oh God,Im voicing my thoughts without realising,gosh how damn strong are these meds shaw?"I mumbled burying my head in my hands,beginning to feel mortified with embarrassment as my face heated.

I heard Shaw chuckle before scooting closer to me and placing her hand on my arm.I brought one hand away from my face and to my lap,which is where her's shifted to.She intertwined her fingers with mine.. I do love it when we hold hands.

"You're not useless Root.Look yes,Im used to the badass confident kinda annoying you.But there are many sides of you and I don't just stick around for the 1 version of you.With anyone else I'll be gone sure,so hey be flattered."Shaw joked.

I smiled weakly at my lap before looking up to glance at her.Her dark brown eyes were always honest .Sure she doesn't feel the way most people do but she still cares and that's 2 things i admire about her,2 qualities that makes her more beautiful.Not that she needs any help I mean,have you seen her?

"God Root even in your subconscious ramble you're a flirt" Shaw teased shaking her head.

"Wha-?Oh God i did it again?"I exclaimed esxasperated."Well it is true tho sweetie and only with you"I winked mocking a faint hint of my usual perky flirtiness but not very successfully.

"Nice try Root"Shaw drawled.

"I really need to stop doing that tho.."I mumbled with a small laugh.

"hmm although i do enjoy the advantage i have when you think your thoughts out loud"Shaw teased ,raising an eyebrow playfully.

"Is that so?"I responded smiling,feeling slightly better.She has that effect on me i guess.

"Glad to hear it"Shaw said laughing.

"Oh shut up i did not just..Ugh you are enjoying this way too much Sameen"I half glared at her.

"Oh yes I am"Shaw smirked,sounding very smug.

I raised an eyebrow as if it were a silent acceptance to a challenge before smiling fondly at her. She looked at me, squeezed my hand and returned the smile.Coming from Shaw,seeing such sweetness meant more than it would have, should it have been anyone else in the world.