soulmates ; calum au

my

September 28, 2015

"Azure. Darling, please wake up"

"Azure! Baby! C'mon."

"Miss. Ross, I'm afraid this is the 5th time Azure has pulled a stunt like this. I think we might need pro-"

"No no no, I'm sorry Miss. Martinez. It's just that she has the soulmate problem an-"

"Yes, you've told me but this is unacceptable. I'll let you off, this time, please send her home. Get her some rest and we'll talk about this later"

I could barely hear the faint sounds of the people talking around me. It was all a blur opening my eyes, with my mom soothing me so I could sleep and a teacher which I guessed would be, Mr. Fuentes, carrying me through the doors, my mind was all over the place.

"Thank you, Victor. Sorry, she keeps sleeping through your class. I swear it's not intentional, she's always telling me how she loves your class and how m-" My mom says blabbering all over the place.

"Olivia", Mr. Fuentes rests his hand on her shoulder, "don't worry. She's an amazing student and soon there will be a cure to it. No worries. Let her rest and I'll make an exception for her."

"Oh thank you! Victor, thank you! I gotta get home soon before Azure wakes up. Don't want her to be hearing about this" She says. She gets into the car, believing I hadn't heard everything but oh dear only if she knew.

Only if she knew.

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The ride back home was silent. In fact, everything was silent. We got out of the car and straight to the bed. Of course, my sleep didn't last long, in fact not even 30 minutes there and I wake up with sweat on my forehead. Again, I thought to myself.

As I start regaining consciousness, I'm there mentally slapping myself for sleeping in Victor's class. I love his voice, it's sweet and soothing. It makes you want to sleep and if it weren't enough, I could barely get 4 hours of sleep. Life wasn't exactly fair.

Honestly, I wish I had never met my soulmate. I didn't even know the gender for heaven sakes and this person was affecting my whole entire life. I can't sleep correctly and I have depression. It was something that at one point wasn't a big deal but over time this problem was just getting worse and worse. The worst thing, I can't stop it.

"Azure"

I look up and see my mom looking at me with the "we need to talk" eyes. She walks over slowly and sits down on my bed.

"Look, I know you can't help it but it's the fifth time you've gone to sleep in class. It's not fair to you nor Vic nor Miss. Martinez," she says with a hint of disappointment in her voice.

"I know mom but I can't help it. Doctors say there's no remedy and Vic's sweet calming voice doesn't help."

"I know know. I'm sorry, it's just frustrating," she hugs me, letting me know that she didn't mean to bash at me. She knew that I couldn't help it.

That was the good thing about this situation. I have a mom and she was so understanding about it. She knows I couldn't help it and when I have the dreams more often she's there every night stroking my hair, telling me that it was okay. I love my mom. We have an amazing relationship and even though we have our fights it wasn't often. We would both say sorry in a matter of 30 minutes or less.

The reason she's understanding is that she is relatively young, she is only 33. She had me when she was 17, she knew things didn't always end up like she wanted them to be. At 18 she got married. Til' the day I don't know much about it and prefer not to. They got a mutual divorce when I was 3. They weren't ready for marriage and were having too many problems. It was best for the both if they just separated. Nothing messy, again it was mutual. Both parted ways and never saw each other.

My mom moved on. Maybe a little hurt at first but that was her destiny or at least she always thought it was. Divorce wasn't something common in this world. You find your soulmate and that was it. Happy life, maybe a few problems but everything was fine. After a divorce, you found your true soulmate. Someone to love.

I was lacking in that, I only hoped for someone to love.

"Azure," mom says looking at me, "I know that someday you will find somebody you love. One day, you will see a slight hint of blue in your eyes. At first, you'll feel confusion but then you'll start crying and look everywhere to see your soulmate only to find that they will be there so close to you. You'll know who they are because they will see the beautiful ocean blue too and look as confused as you. Before you know it you'll be in their arms, peacefully sleeping at night. Not having nightmares that keep you awake."

By the time she finished I'm crying. I'm only hoping to find that day where I find the person who could stop these nightmares and stop this depression. I'm  hoping to be in the store or just in a random coffee place, bump into this person, and see that hint of blue glimmering from everything. Life wasn't like that. It wasn't fair.

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a/n:

IM SO SORRY THIS IS SO BORING I SWEAR IT WILL GET INTERESTING SOON.

the next chapter will be there to explain too. i'm not really sure but IM SORRY. soulmates are hard to explain.

this chapter is so short too. i promise to write more quality content.

i promise k? so pls don't give up on this book.

-mari