A Broken Heart...Healed? [The Sequel]

Christmas

It's Christmas 2016.
Ha....lovely white snow & a warm hot chocolate in my hand.
The Christmas cheer & jolly spirits everywhere.

Most importantly, the little party the Veda's are throwing at their house.

I'm currently sitting on their couch blankly staring at their gorgeous, white Christmas tree.
The Alston's, Gordon's, are currently here as well.
Even my brother, sis, Azariah, Joshua, Erika, Renee, & Jakeline.
We all helped decorate the tree beautifully.
Daniel even lifted Skyler to the top of the tree to put a little ornament.
It was the most adorable thing I've ever seen.

The adults are all still in the kitchen eating & conversing.

Everyone else went up to Daniel's room.
Thank god, it was big or we've would've been squished.

I came down here to the living room without anybody noticing.

Brandon...........
Ever since that situation with Brandon this week....I could barely sleep.
We had a funeral dedicated to him on the 23rd....the next day. It was really a long day since we had to prepare everything in under about 8 hours.
I didn't attend.
I couldn't bare face his little sister or stepfather.
Even though we lied about how he died....I couldn't.
Everyone else attended though.

When they returned.....I could....see everyone around me crying their eyes out.
Me.....I couldn't even blink.
I stayed in my room curled up in a little ball not even noticing the number of people coming in & out of my room.

The next day, the clan buried Errol in the forest. I attended that.

Today was Christmas, & we all agreed to at least have fun today.
But I didn't mean it when u agreed to it.
How could I have fun when I was responsible for one of my best friend's death.

I head towards the window & stare outside.
It's snowing.
Little droplets of snow are falling from the sky. 🌨🌨🌨
Snowflakes......❄️️❄️️❄️❄️️❄️❄️❄️️❄️
I could even see through another house across the street, a family eating dinner. A mother, a father, two sons, & a daughter.
How nice it must be........

I quietly & carefully put on my jacket, opened the front door & headed outside.
I sat on the steps & sipped my hot chocolate.
I looked up at the sky.

"I'm sorry Brandon.....", I said aloud letting a tear fall down.
"I-I should've killed my uncle on the spot, the second I managed to get free. Instead...I let him pull that trigger a-and......(Sobs)", I sob quietly & bit my lip to stop the noises from coming out.

"Why are u crying?", I heard a voice say behind me.
I quickly wipe away my tears & turned my head.
It was Joshua.

"What are u doing out here? It's cold.", I stated trying to get up.
"I saw u walk out of the room & followed u to the living room. I stayed quietly on the stairs looking at u staring at the tree. As I was about to leave, u got up & snuck outside.", he responds.
"Well I'm fine. Just needed some fresh air. I should get back upstairs.", I said turning the door knob.
Joshua puts his hand over mines.
"What are u doing?", I asked surprisingly.
"Brandon isn't blaming u for his death. He just wants u to be happy. I bet u, right now....he's looking down at us knowing that we're all safe. Please.....stop blaming yourself.", he states seriously.
He looked worried about me.
I smile a little.
"Thanks. I'm alright. Come on, let's go inside." I state grabbing his arm & leading him inside the house.

We head upstairs & entered the room.
I sat next to Daniel & leaned my head on his shoulder.
"You ok?😄", he asked smiling.
It took me a second. I admired that smile.
"I'm ok.", I responded with a gentle smile as well.🙂

To Be Continued......