Unbreaking His Heart

The 6th time [Chapter 5]

5

“Gusto mo ng coke?” I asked. After he dropped me at my apartment, he walked me to the front door, then he stared at me like a creep and that’s when I get the signal I should ask him to stay for a while.

“Meron ba? Sige,” he said casually. We are sitting on the couch for about 10 minutes now without saying a single word so I guess that’s just awkward, right? So I get up and were about to walk to the kitchen when he grabbed my hand to stop me.

“Bakit?” tanong ko.

I saw his adam’s apple moved. He gulped. He looks like he’s ready to shit and I was like, ‘what is wrong with him?’

“Can I… can I stay here tonight?” he looked at me with that you-probably-couldn’t-say-no-to-this-look, which is bullshit because… hell, he’s using his cuteness and he knows too well he could make me. So before I make myself a complete idiot I looked away.

I chuckled nervously. “You can’t Trevor. Uuwi si Alex ngayon,” napakamot nalang ako sa batok ko. “So I would appreciate if you leave after a glass of coke.”

BAM! He looked like I just killed the heck out of him.

“Oh... Right,” binitiwan niya yung kamay ko at sumandal sa sofa. “Ok,” he smiled with all the disappointment in the world.

Oh shit. Just what the hell did I say?

After preparing his drink I wanted to drown myself to the toilet, no kidding. Sinilip ko siya habang nilalagyan ng coke yung isang baso and I saw how frustrated he is.

“Oy,” bati ko sabay patong nung coke at biscuit sa table pagkatapos ay naupo sa tabi niya. His face suddenly lights up but I know he’s faking it.

“Hey,” His arm suddenly slipped through my shoulders. He turned his full attention to me. And I looked at him.

“What?” tanong ko.

“Go out with me this weekend.” He said it like his life depended on it.  Come on, tell me how am I supposed to say no to this freaking good looking guy when his eyes are literally begging me for it? Crap.

“At saan naman tayo pupunta?”

He shrugged. “Anywhere. I mean, to the places you want to go..I just really want to spend time with you” huminga siya ng malalim. “You work really hard everyday. You deserve some day off, right?”

I grinned. “Are you really thinking about me… or you?”

His ears turned red. Everytime he’s caught for something embarrassing or if he just thinks it’s embarrassing his ears just sort of turned its color to a red. “It’s NOT like that,” Halata nga, defensive masyado eh.

I nodded, teasing him lightly. “Oh really?!”

“YEAH,” he suddenly grabs the glass of coke and drunk it straight. I was shocked. Wow, what is he even thinking?

“You don’t have to do that.”

He looked at me and I saw his face became really freakish. “WHAT?”

“Trevor, ang pula mo. Seriously? I’m just kidding. You don’t have to be so guilty about it,” sabi ko habang pinipigilang matawa.

Mas lalong hindi napakali si mokong. “Shut up.” My grin spread wider. Sinandal ko yung ulo ko balikat niya and he suddenly became jumpy. He even moved away from me when I tried leaning my face into his. Wow, this guy. Seriously?

“You’re acting like I’m the one taking advantage of you. I can’t believe it, you jerk.” Pabiro kong sabi. He just looked at me looking like he’s ready to kill me with his chinito eyes.

“Well, you really are,” he smirked. “I took advantage of you when we were in college remember? But I already stopped doing it when we graduated. And now look at you. You are the one who can’t wait to get your hands on me.”

My eyes got a little bit bigger than its original size. “What the heck are you talking about?”

He cocked his head sideward. “You really like me, don't you?” he asked and I didn’t even hear what he said because I was so busy admiring his lips as it moves while he speaks. Really Juls? Just die.

“Anong sabi mo?” tanong ko ulit dahil nga nawala ako sa ulirat. Nagulat nalang ako ng bigla nalang may dumamping labi sa pisngi ko. W—W—What the--?

“You're so cute.”

Nawala sa ayos yung hininga ko. I probably look like a pathetic teenager with her emotional crap and shits. But I don’t care. You could imagine me not moving even a bit, like I had just experienced stroke for the first time. Well, I didn’t really know how it feels to be in a stroke, I just felt like saying it.

“Juls?”

“Hey, Juls? Are you ok?”

“Come on, don’t make me nervous. Say something.”

“Julienne, someone’s knocking on the door.”

“Shit, should I just get it for you? It’s probably your roommate and we’re busted so… shit! Screw it!”

I’m still paralyzed. Obviously, I can’t move. I saw blurry movement of him walking to the door and opening it. I blink a few times. It’s still blurry, everything around. I looked at his direction and saw Alex standing infront of him.

Then… a moment later I felt a hand smacked the back of my head. “Hoy bakla! Ano nanaman nangyayari sayo?!”

And snap! I’m back. Holy Shit.

“That’s Trevor?! WOW, he’s HOT.”

"You have a boyfriend.” I rolled my eyes at her.. “Asan na siya?”

“Whatever. He went home already. He said you’ve gone crazy and I should probably check on you.” She eyed me like a prosecutor. “Ok, what happened? Bakit bigla ka nalang hindi gumalaw dyan?”

“I don’t know.” I smiled hazily. “I just suddenly realized that life’s really worth it after all.” Binatukan niya nanaman ako.

“Gaga! Para kang tanga.”

I smiled widely. “Ang gwapo niya no?” I said wiggling my eyebrows.

“The heck are you smiling? You want me to take him away from you?” she teased.

“I’m gonna kill you, I’m serious.” I said chuckling.

“Kidding,” she said and then throws at my direction what looks like a ring box. “He proposed to me again.” She said sounding so serious at the moment.

My eyes grew really wide. I opened the velvet box and stared at the gorgeous diamond ring inside of it.   “Again? For the 6th time? Wow, he doesn’t really know when to give up do he? Kung di mo tinanggap, bakit nasayo tong singsing?”

She just nodded for a response. “Yeah,” she scratched her head. “Well he said I should just keep the rings he’s giving me. At that, his feelings won’t be as dead as fuck.”

“Oh…right.” I paused. "Why can't you just say yes? You're not planning on leaving him, are you? 10 years na kayong magkasama and there's no question about doing the thing. Why reject him every single  time?" That’s the question, isn’t it? Why can’t you marry someone you love for so many years? Why is it so hard for her to give him the big yes?

She just shrugged. “He’s not ready yet Juls. Trust me I know him. We’ve known each other since childhood. We dated for the past 10 years. We already slept together… and I don’t know. It’s like an instinct. I'm gonna marry him...when the right time comes.”

I looked at her face. She’s just so weird. Like she knows everything, even the things about myself that even I don’t probably know. One word to describe her? Genius badass. Okay, that’s two words actually.