Way Back Into Love - JaiLene

Chapter 5

Jairus

Ang saya saya ko. Friends na ulit kami ni Shar. Ok na rin yun at least kapiling ko pa rin siya.

Kinaumagahan, may akong blog akong nasulyapan sa Internet. It stated:

How to court a broken-hearted girl:

1) Become a shoulder to lean on

2) Earn her trust

3) Let her forget the pain

4) Become close to her family

5) Open up to her ( This step may be optional and/or be done anytime you like )

6) Invite for dinner

7) Tell her your feelings

8) Court her

"Pfft. Become a shoulder to lean on? Napaka-unprofessional naman nito. Step 1 pa lang, alam mo nang hindi gagana. Magpapamusic na nga lang," nag-youtube ako at pinakinggan ang paboritong kanta ko.

I've been living with a shadow overhead, 

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, 

I've been lonely for so long, 

Trapped in the past, 

I just can't seem to move on! 

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, 

Just in case I ever need 'em again someday, 

I've been setting aside time, 

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind! 

All I wanna do is find a way back into love. 

I can't make it through without a way back into love.

Ooo hooow 

Ang gaan naman sa pakiramdam. Naalala ko tuloy si Shar. Paborito niya rin kasi to eh. Naalala ko pa na kinanta naming dalawa to sa isang singing contest noong 3rd year kami at kami pa yung nanalo.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, 

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs, 

I know that it's out there, 

There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere! 

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light, 

Not somebody just to get me through the night, 

I could use some direction, 

And I'm open to your suggestions. 

All I wanna do is find a way back into love. 

I can't make it through without a way back into love. 

And if I open my heart again, 

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! 

There are moments when I don't know if it's real 

Or if anybody feels the way I feel 

I need inspiration 

Not just another negotiation 

All I wanna do is find a way back into love, 

I can't make it through without a way back into love, 

And if I open my heart to you, 

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, 

And if you help me to start again, 

You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Oo nga pala! Muntik ko ng malimutan. Yung diary.

Dali-dali ko itong kinuha at binuksan.

Pagbukas ko ay may biglang nahulog mula sa loob.

"Ano yun?" kinuha ko ito at napanganga, "ito yung kwintas na ibinigay ko sa kanya 10 years ago," masaya ako dahil nagawa pa niya itong itago, ipinatapon nga lang...

--------OxO---------

Sharlene

Masaya kong kasama si Jai kahapon. Hindi nga ako makapaniwala na nagyari yun eh.

Friday ngayon so its BONDING TIME. Every Friday night kasi ay pumupunta si Nash sa bahay para magmovie-marathon kaming dalawa. Hinanda ko na ang lahat; ang sala malinis na, ang snacks namin at saka yung movies na papanoorin namin.

7pm sharp ay may kumatok. Tinignan ko kung sino. Si Nash pala!

"Hi babes!" ngumiti ako sa kanya pero seryosong seryoso ang mukha niya.

"Pwede ba tayong mag-usap?" paseryosong tanong niya.

"Oo naman. Ano pag-uusapan natin?" pumunta muna kami sa sala.

(Sala)

"So babes, ano yung pag-uusapan natin? At bakit ang seryoso ng mukha mo?" patakang tanong ko.

"Shar, I wanna break up with you,"

Nabigla ako at parang sinuntok yung puso ko, "Ano? Bakit? After all these years?"

"I'm sorry Shar... I know we've been together for so long and marami na tayong pinagdaanan but... mas mahal ko si Alexa kaysa sa yo. Noon ko pa siya gusto and..." sinampal ko siya at tumakbo na agad palabas ng bahay.