The One I've Always Wanted [LeafyisHere SMUT]

Chapter 34

Not updated in ages sorry, lot of shit has been going on but doesn't matter :/

He stood up quickly from the chair hoping for good news
"We.. Uhh.. We managed to save her" the nurse said, Calvin smiled
"But uhh-"
"But?! Wait no there should be no buts you saved her she's gonna be alright I mean yo-" the nurse stopped him before he could full on panic
"But... She lost a lot more blood than we thought... She only has about half an hour left... I'm so sorry.."

Calvin sat down and just stared into space, his mind taking over him. He eventually looked at the nurse and just said
"Thanks, it's okay I mean if there's nothing you can do I guess that's it. Thanks" he smiled (fakely) to the nurse and she walked off. When she was gone he burst into tears. This was the end. It's all my fault he thought to himself.
He stood up and walked slowly into the room. To his surprise you were awake! You looked so tired and weak.
As soon as you seen him you smiled. He opened his mouth to talk but you spoke first.
"Calvin, sweetie. It's okay. I'm not mad at you. Despite what happened it's okay I forgive you"
"But I can never forgive myself, if I hadn't done what I done we wouldn't be here right now! You wouldn't be dying! We would be at home making a video or some shit. Y/n I will never forgive myself for this. I love you more than anyone or anything in this world and.. And look what I did.. I'm losing you. And all I ever wanted was you."
"Calvin. Don't blame yourself, what you did was wrong but it's okay, I love you so much, please don't blame yourself, this wouldn't of happened if it wasn't supposed to"
"But it wasn't supposed to! Y/n you can't just leave me like this! Look at that fucking ring on your finger we're supposed to get married and have kids and whatever!"
"Calvin... I'm not the right girl to do that with- clearly. Go and live your life with another girl okay, or boy it's up to you"
"I'm not gay" Calvin said blankly. You giggled quietly.
"Please, I don't wanna talk about the thing we could do... I just wanna sit in silence with you. Please" Calvin looked at the clock.. 20 minutes left.
"Okay babe" he lay on the bed with you and cuddled you in gently.