Fade

SOCIETY~The Girl Who Was Afraid of Nothing

Isn't it crazy how when we are first born, we are born without fear, without worry? Everything is just the way it is. Babies do not fight it. They are just themselves.

I grew up by myself on a farm, in basically the middle of nowhere. I lived with my family, and only my family (mom, dad, and brother.) I never really had any friends my age. Only a couple of kids older than me, because they were my parents friends children. I never questioned anything.

You see, growing up alone, with only people who love you, I feel like it is a good thing. I grew up thinking I was the fastest girl in the world, the prettiest in the world. I always thought I was the best. I had confidence to go up and talk to strangers. And I wasn't afraid, I had no fears, and I was awesome.

But, now as I grew up, I realized that it wasn't true. People judge, and people judged me so much, that now I have fears, and I am not the prettiest girl, and I am not the fastest runner.

So, why does this happen? Why does society conform us to be what we do not want to be? Why does it make us afraid to do things? Why?

It hurts to even think about it, because it is so deep. I just do not even understand it. I just wish I could be me again. The girl who was afraid of nothing.