Sam's POV
I went into my apartment, brought my bags in. I started cooking.
*DING DONG*
Oh, that had to be James. I opened the door.
James: "Hey Babe, how was your first day?"
Sam: "Oh hey, it was uhmm, good." he gave me a kiss on my head.
James: "Is anything okay babe?"
Sam: "Oh yeah sure".
We ate and had a lazy night. He noticed something was up, but I didn't want to tell.
One month just passed by. Brian always wanted more. He touched me again and again. I pushed him always away. I thought I could get through this. I mean it's an awesome job. Moreover I was afraid, that I will never ever get a job in this business. Do I have to go through this?James had to work a lot. He was stressed from time to time. I knew he would've been there for me, it I could tell him. But I just couldn't. I hide it and hide it. Try to act normal. But he knew something was up. James and I fighted from time to time. It was not the best time for both of us. I was stressed as well. University, Job, Relationship with a celebrity. I just lived from day to day. That was all.
It was the middle of december. Almost christmas. I was at James house and it happened again.
Sam: "OMG James, do you really think, that your life is harder than mine?"
James: "All I'm saying is, that you have to patient from time to time to understand that I'm not always the smiling one. There are times I'm in a mad mood and stuff. Didn't you get it yet?"
Sam: "That's not what I mean. We just fight because of your mood"
James: "Oh really? Do you really think it's easy with you at the moment? You're not Miss perfect eigther. Did you get it now?"
Sam: "Well, maybe you should get another girlfriend from your hollywood friends."
James: "I wouldn't have this discussion again"
Sam: "Whatever you want. Asshole"
James: "Where are you going?"
Sam: "AWAY"
I just ran out of his house. I went to one of my favourite places. I went to the hollywood sign. Not far away from James house. I enjoyed the view, it was like I'm free like a bird. I was standing there, looking down on Downtown. It was already dark outside and I looked at all those lights of Los Angeles. I thought about the Brian thing, about James. Would it have been easier, if I told him. I didn't know. I just wanted to go away for a while. I took my phone and called my brother.
Daniel: "What's up baby sis?"
Sam: "Hey brotha, could u do me a favour?"
Daniel: "Sure, what is it?"
Sam: "Could you look up for a flight back home? ASAP?"
Daniel: "What's wrong? You wanna leave LA?"
Sam: "Yeah, just for now. I can't do this anymore"
Daniel: "uhmm okay. Whatever you want"
Sam: "But don't tell Mom and Dad, okay?"
Daniel: "Of course not. I'll call you, when I find something."
Sam: "Thank you soo much. I love you"
Daniel: "I love you too, take care"
Sam: "I will"
We hung up. I love my brother. He never asked any questions. I was breaking down and cried. I'm not that girl who cries. I was always strong. But this time it was too much for me. The job of my dreams was a nightmare, I was afraid of loosing James. I knelt down in the ash, covering my hands. Suddenly I felt some strong arms around me. They just hold me. "Shh shh, it's okay Sam." I heared a familar vioce saying. I knew it was James. I just cried. "Come up babe, shh shh" he said again and pulled me up. He hugged my tight, his head rested on my head. I still covered my face with my hands and cried.He tried to calm me down. Didn't work that good. He didn't ask a question til I was able to breath again.
James: "You really wanna leave Los Angeles?"
Sam: "You heard it?"
James: "Yeah, I did."
Sam: "How did you find me?"
James: "There are two favourite spots for you. Here and the beach. Do you really think I don't know my girlfriend? [break] So you really wanna go?"
Sam: "I don't know. I just need to be away from here for a while. Not from you, but from here"
James: "OKay, let's do a christmas trip"I looked shock at him.
Sam: "What do you mean?"
James: "Well, I noticed that you are not yourself since a while. Let's go out of this crazy down. What about Christmas shopping in New York?"
Sam: "But you have to work"
James: "Next week is christmas break, so no worries. But don't leave me like this."
Sam: "THANK YOU SOOO MUCH" I hugged him tightly.
James: "So call your brother girl" he laughed. I wiped away my tears and call my brother, that he doesn't have to search for flight anymore. We went to my apartment and went to bed.
~Nightmare~
I walked into the chanceller, straight in the kitchen for a cup of coffee. Brian came into the room. He took my wrist and pushed my into a corner.
Brian: "Just time for us two. Were alone today!"
Sam: "Brian, I told you to not touching me!"
Brian: "If you don't wanna give me what I want, I just take it. Because I can, because I'm the son of your head"
I tried to push him away but it didn't work. Suddelny he was much stronger. Lust in his eyes. I tried to scream but I couldn't. He kissed me and pulled up my skirt and touched me everywhere.
Brian: "Trust me, one day, you will enjoy it. I'm a really good lover!"
Sam: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO" I screamed.
~End Nightmare~
I jumped out of the bed. James shaked me to wake me up. I was full of sweat and tears. OMG...
James: "Babe? Are you okay?"
Sam: "I need to breath." I stood up and went on my roof-deck. I breathed deep and fast.
James came over and tried to hug me."No, James, please don't" I said with shock.
James: "Okay babe, you need to tell me, what's wrong"
Sam: "Nothing, just a nightmare"
James: "Samantha. Don't lie. You shiver when I touch you, you don't like it anymore. Kisses are not the same. We haven't have sex for more than a month. What's wrong, tell me."
Sam: OMG There was it. Samantha "James, please I can't"
James: "I'm your boyfriend. Don't you trust me?"
Sam: "James, please, of course I do."
James: "Then tell me what's wrong. You are a totally different person. I miss my girlfriend"
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Will Sam tell her the truth? James has a lot of stress at work. Will she tell him to save their love or does she wants to protect her carrier? btw. her carrier is really important for her. It's her dream.
What do you think?
