Sam's POV
Sam: "I'm right here"
James: "No your not. My Sam is far away."
Sam: "I promise to do my best to be the old one."
James: "That's not wht I mean. You destroy yourself. I just wanna help you"
Sam: "James, please, don't force me to. I'm not ready"
I didn't wnt to tell James. I know he would "kill" Brian. I wanted to start my carrier without any trouble. I knew I have to go through this by myself. Alone. I saw the hurt in his eyes. I felt so guilty and torn. It was just my fault. OMG what am I walking? I never said something like this. Why do I feel like this. One day I will tell him. Like I said before, I was not the girl who cried usually. But it was a different situation.With my last sentence a tear rolled down my cheek.
Sam: "Please"
James hugged me tight, to show my that he would be there for me.
James: "I just want to help you. I don't wanna see you like this. And I just feel so helpless."
Sam: "Don't be. It was just a nightmare. I can handle it by myself babe."
He nodded and pulled away. We went to bed again. I fall asleep.
James POV
Oh my god, what's going on? I really wanted to help her. She fall asleep pretty fast. I hold her close to my chest. I wanted to give her the feeling, that she's save in my arms. Why didn't she trust me. I hate to see her like this. I felt so helpless. I have to book our trip tomorrow. I don't want her to go back home. I was thinking and thinking. I couldn't sleep for 2 hours, til I finally could.
When I woke up it was 6am. I had to be in the studio in 4 hours. I decided to go downstairs and called an agency to book a flight for next week. On saturday we would be far away from her problems. One hours later, Sam woke up.
Sam's POV
I woke up and went downstairs. What a night. I was glad James didn't force me to talk about it. When I was in my livingroom I saw James. He came up to me and hugged me. I let him and I enjoyed it somehow. But not like before. Too much was on my mind.
James: "On saturday we gonna fly to New York. I'll show you around. As you know I was born there. Hope you'll enjoy it babe."
Sam: I lokked in his eyes and smiled weakly. "Thank you so much James. Really, I'm sooo thankfull."
He nodded and kissed my forehead. Our relationship was not the same. And I knew it was my fault. Too much pressure. A few hours later he left for the studio, I went to college and to the "job of my dreams"
It was friday. James wanted to pick me up. I was happy, because I knew I had christmas break in a few hours. I was glad to be away from here for a few days. The whole week Brian tried to touch me again and again and said dirty words. It was disgusting. I was always such a strong girl. And I was proud of it. But from time to time I was to weak to fight against Brian. He wanted more. He always looked at me with lust in his eyes. Sometimes he kissed my neck. But I was just to weak to push him away. I felt soo bad. Sometimes, after such situations, I had to throw up. Of course James noticed it. But he didn't ask, and I was glad about it. I never wanted to talk about it.
Just 30minutes left and I thought, well, I was save. Maybe some dirty comments or touch, But that's it.
I was in the kitchen for another coffee. Brian was in a meeting I tought. Like every lawyer at Broke & Nobel. I thought I was safe.
Suddenly Brian came in. I looked at him, shocked.
Sam: "What are you doing here? I thought you are in a meeting?" I said week.
Brian: "Well, you know. I told my dad I have an important call for school, so I'm free for now. Don't you leave at 6?"
Sam: "Yeah I do."
Brian: "Well we should hurry up now" he came closer.
Sam: "What do you mean?"
Brian: "I wanna get my christmas present now" he touched my waist
Sam: "Brian, please, don't do that" I tried to push him away, but I was too weak.
Brian: "Shhh princess. I promise, you will enjoy it"
Brian started to kiss my neck. I put my head back and closed my eyes.He ripped off my white blouse and pulled my grey skirt up. [See media] A tear fall down my cheek. My hands cold. Pale in my face. I couldn't fight. So I just prayed that it would be over soon. I couldn't screem. "Please, Brian, no" I wispered. "Shh shh Sam." he said with lust in his voice. I had my blouse still on, but open. He slipped my white bra down. It was unter my boobs now. He smiled at me. I cried and whined. He kissed my neck, went down and kissed my boobs. He stroked my butt. I closed my eyes. I heared the door open.
James POV
I was sitting in my car. I copied the keys for my house. I wanted to give it to her as a surpise. I couldn't wait. I went up into the chancellery to the front desk.
Lady: "Hello, can I help you?"
James: "Yeah, I'm looking for my girlfriend Samantha."
Lady: "Just wait a second. I call her"
James: "Thank you"
After 30 seconds of rinning Sam didn't answer.
Lady: "Oh, it seems she's not at her place right now. But she might be in kitchen for coffee. It's the 3rd door in the back. On the left side."
James: "Okay, thank you"
I went to the door, read the sign 'Kitchen'. I opened the door and saw... Sam and Brian. I was shocked. Wanted to leave. I thought he's cheating on my. I looked in her face and saw tears rolling down her cheek. I knew what's happening there.
James: "You motherf**king bastard." I pulled him away. Throw him into a shelf.Sam broke down and cried. I punched him one time. His lip was bleeding. I wanted to punch him again, but stopped as I heard a weak voice saying: "James, stop please. Don't"
"What? Sam, he was trying to..." I mentioned. "Please, I just wanna get out of here." Sam sobbed. "Lucky you" I said to Brian. He was sitting on the ground, touching his bleeding lip.
I throw my jacket around Sams shoulder, hold her tight. She whiped away her tears and her make up. We left.
Lady: "Merry christmas guys"
Sam: "Thank you. Same to you" she wanted to sound normal, with a weak smile on her face.
