Notes~ A SkyDoesMinecraft Fanfic

Notes~ Chapter 9

"What do you mean it won't go perfectly? It must!" I expect nothing, but still speak to myself in a doubting but worried tone.

I'm growing stronger, practically a real person, I CAN respond. But yes, it will be ok....until you see somebody, or rather some PEOPLE that will break you. That is all I can say, anymore and your future will change.

"Ok well answer me this, voice-"

Call me......Sven.

"Sven. Why are you here?" I ask staring at the ceiling.

To protect you. I know you very well, as well as you know yourself.

"Interesting. Why do you care so much? I mean I don't know any people who care this much about me..." I say, sounding more depressed than I want.

Well first of all, Adam cares about you. Enough to save your life.

"So.....are you Adam?"

.......I wish I could tell you.

I stop talking and think. Sven has to be Adam....I mean who else cares about me? I'm kind of worthless. I'm not smart, pretty.....I sometimes wonder why Adam loves me.....or....does he really?

I get curious...I have to ask him or else it will slowly eat away at my mind.

To: Adam ♥
Message: Adam, This is sooo random but why do you like me?

That should do. I press send and pull on my green and blue Sony headphones, they're like my prized possession. I click the green and grey Spotify app and You Make Me by Avicii comes on. I tap my foot and await Adam's response.

About 2 minutes into the song I hear a buzz and pick up my phone.

From: Adam ♥
Message: Well I mean, I don't see how I can't. You're talented, cute, funny and my first friend :)

I felt like I was floating. He thought I was all of those things?

Reply: Thank you. I just needed reassurance.

I sent it, as lucky came on. It made me shiver every time I heard it, like I felt Adam's presence. That's why I listened to it every night before I slept. It might sound a little creepy, but I feel like I need him with me all of the time.

you do....

Sven quietly muttered, I still heard it though. And Sven is right. I do need Adam. I feel empty without him, like every second I'm away from him, the hole in my heart gets bigger, and bigger.

What am I saying? I can't attach myself to him. I'm thinking like a five-year-old girl, with fairy tale endings and happily ever afters.

I hear my phone buzz again.

From: Adam ♥
Message: Why? Is everything ok?

That question never meant more to me in my life. AM I ok? Is everything ok? I couldn't tell. But I couldn't say that to Adam; over text none the less. So I just responded simply.

Reply: Yeah, just feeling a bit under the weather, don't worry :3

I felt the pain of guilt rise over me. I just lied to him....him of all people.

The lie won't last for long. Wait a few moments, it will break, but don't be scared.

I obeyed Sven, not arguing. A couple minutes later my phone rang, it was Adam.

"Hello?" I said attempting my normal voice

"Lil! Are you ok? What's wrong."

"Uh nothing just a little allergies that's all."

"Are you sure....I'm not convinced..."

I struggled....should I tell him? I should...but how can I? I use the simplest word I can think of, but still remember the word has a word to change my life.

"....No."