Déjà Vu {A Luke Castellan Story} [Three]

•Twenty-One•

I was up on my feet and yelling at Nico for answers. "What do you mean he's gone?" I snapped, I was shouting at the top of my lungs at this point. I felt horrible for our neighbors and anyone near us. Nico put his hands up defensively, "(Y/N), calm down." The anger just grew, "Calm down? Are you kidding me? My own brother is missing! How am I supposed to 'Calm down,' Di'Angelo?" I dropped back onto the couch and stared at the bracelet. I felt hollow, my own brother was gone. The one I didn't want involved with this madness. He had just vanished. My stability was slowly deteriorating. I could feel it, my emotional stability was just crumbling right before my eyes. It almost felt like the floor below me was disappearing and I was falling. Falling into a dark pit of no emotions, I couldn't process what everyone else normally could. I was too shocked.

"(Y/N)?"

My head snapped up to see my best friend staring back at me with concern. His onyx eyes screamed that he was worried beyond belief, I think he knew just how much this was tearing me apart. My own brother, my own flesh and blood, gone just like that. Who wouldn't be torn apart like that? "We'll find him, I promise." His voice seemed a bit shaky, I knew he was trying to stay strong. He'd taken in Luke as his own and now he was just up and gone. I know how he'd taken in losing Bianca, this must be killing him. He slumped down to the seat next to me and held me. A warm, comforting hug. Nothing more... It made me relax. Who would've thought that the child of death himself was so warm? Maybe it was just my body heat rubbing off on him but it still felt nice. We had sat together for a while. I couldn't physically bring myself to do anything but sit there. It felt as if my whole existence started to fade away. Was it dramatic? Quite possibly. It did, although, feel as if a huge chunk of my life was missing.

I pushed myself away from Nico and stood up, walking straight towards the door. "(Y/N)?" I completely ignored him. I needed to go, I needed to get out there and look for Logan. I was about to step out of the door when he grabbed my wrist. Not too tightly but had a good enough grip to keep me from leaving. "(Y/N), please." The desperation in Luke's voice... It was something I've never heard before, at least in this life. I stared down at the ground. I couldn't look at him, I knew I would give in to those eyes. Only the gods know what look he was giving me. "I have to go." Only I could hear Nico's small comments saying I didn't. The blond sighed and his grip loosened. "(Y/N) trust me. I don't have a good feeling about this." I pulled my arm out of his grip and quite harshly may I add. "Neither do I but I actually intend on doing something to get him back." Where I was going next was completely up to the fates, I was out of it. I don't quite remember how long it took me to realize that I was going nowhere. But it was dark by the time I came to my senses.

One knock after another until the blond son of Apollo answered. "(Y/N)?" I gave him no response, I still couldn't bring myself to say anything, to face reality. He dragged me inside to his apartment from the cold. "I'll tell Nico you're here." I nodded and sat in silence on the couch. I stared at a picture of Nico and Logan kept right beside me. A small smile crept onto my lips, only to be followed by tears. Will must've walked by to witness the pity scene, he said nothing but instead made me a warm cup of (tea/coffee/hot chocolate) and rubbed my back soothingly. I took a careful and shaky sip right before Nico opened his own front door. "(Y/N), you're worrying Luke.." I looked down in guilt with no words to add on. He kneeled down in front of me so he could look at me in the eye, "You know I'm your best friend, I'd do anything to help you." My mouth opened to say something but proceeded to shut on it's own. After a bit, I managed to get a small whisper out. "Take me to camp."

He stayed silent for a bit, "What about Luke?" I sighed. I couldn't just leave him alone but I didn't want him coming along. I couldn't have him get hurt as well. "Fine, we'll take him." He nodded and left the apartment to fetch Luke. Will walked back and fourth a few times, he panicked about the Apollo Cabin. I guess once a counselor, always a counselor. The door slowly opened and the blond followed the son of Hades into the warmth. I stood up and grabbed Nico's hand, basically telling him I wanted to leave now. He nodded and held a hand out for Luke to grab. "Be safe." Will, I knew, was talking to all of us but mainly directed it towards Nico. He gave a small smile and nodded before we were gone. If the voices never affected me, they sure were now. Maybe they could since my sorrow, how empty I really was. Maybe they know I was just like them, the only thing that made me classify as alive was my heartbeat.