Pain

You should be running

If you guys can't see the song, its Paris by Magic Man

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I wont hold back, I told myself. 

Today I was going to talk to Michael and I've never been more nervous for something in my whole life. I wiped my sweaty palms on my jeans and took a couple deep breaths before I started up my Jeep. 

I turned the key and listen to the motor rumble. My heart was beating and my breath was shaky.

I began to drive and as I got closer to his house the more nervous I got. I don't know what to expect, the hickeys were still pretty bad but since its cold outside so I had the perfect excuse to wear a big hoodie. 

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I was face to face with his front door and as I was about to knock the door opened up revealing Luke. 

His face grew a soft smile. "I uh, saw you coming." He said stepping aside signaling for me to step in. I just smiled and walked in.

I chewed on my bottom lip before quietly speaking. "How's he been." I asked keeping my voice low and quiet. He let out a smile laugh and shook his head. "That's the question he's been dying to ask you." He said tucking his hands into his pockets.

He began to walk away signaling for me to follow him which I did. He stopped before turning the corner to walk into the living room. 

"What ever happens...were going to be there for both of you okay, but everything should go well." He said. 

I nodded my head. He walked in before me and I took a deep breath before walking in. 

As soon as I came into the living room I saw Michael sitting on the couch with his head hanging low. 

He quickly looked up at me and his eyes grew soft. They were red, and he had dark circles under them. He looked miserable. I could see in his eyes that he was hurting, I wanted to break down when I saw him but I didn't. I stayed strong. 

Calum was sitting over on the bricks in front of the fireplace and Ashton was standing next to Michael. Luke was standing next to me and he patted my back. 

Ashton approached me and gave me a hug. "Its good to see you, sorry I couldn't go see you, I needed to keep Michael calm and stuff." He whispered in my ear. 

I just gave him an understanding nod.

"Lets um, give them some privacy." Ashton said motioning for the boys to follow him out of the room. 

As much as I would have wanted them to stay being how nervous I am at the moment, I new I had to talk to Michael alone. 

Calum got up from the fireplace and before walking out of the room he point at Michael giving him a 'Don't do or say anything stupid' Look before walking out leaving us alone. 

Michael looked up at me from the couch before looking back down at his shoes. 

He was about to say something before I cut him off. "Before you say anything Michael, I just wanna say I forgive you, I know you didn't mean to do what you did, and it was mainly my fault for getting you mad anyway. I started ignoring you for no reason just because I slipped into a bad mood and I shouldn't have done that knowing how you can get, so I want to apologize for being dumb and not just answering your question in the first place." I said as quickly as I could as I continued to feel the nerves in my veins jumping.

He was looking up at me with his eyebrows raised and his mouth slightly open. He scoffed.

"Your kidding me right, please tell me your joking because I don't know anybody that would forgive someone that easily for what I did to you, and seriously? Don't fucking apologize Mia you didn't do anything." He said standing up from the couch with his eyebrows still raised."

"No Michael I'm not kidding, I know you can't control what happens when you get angry, I... I just got scared." I said saying the last part quietly.

"Exactly, so then why are you forgiving me when your scared of me? Are you scared that if you don't forgive me then I'll hurt you or force you to forgive me, is that it?" He said taking a step towards me. 

He wasn't yelling, and he didn't seem like he was getting mad. He just seemed confused.

I quickly shook my head. 

"I'm not forgiving you because I think you'll hurt me or something, I'm forgiving you because I know you didn't mean to hurt me, and I know that you would never try to. And its not that I'm scared of you Michael because I'm not, I just don't want to have to watch what I say or be careful of how I say something." I said taking a step towards him as he did to me earlier.

"But that's the thing, you are scared of me if you feel like you have to watch what you say or how you say something around me because your scared of how I'll react, Mia... don't lie to yourself. I'm sorry, I really am, I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from doing what I did to you, I see those hickeys on you neck that I left you, I can't believe that I fucking did that." He said shaking his head. 

I started to see his eyes begin to water. He covered his mouth with one hand as he continued to shake his head while trying to hold back some tears but failing as they started slipping from his eyes. 

My eyes started stinging and my heart grew soft seeing him like that. 

"Don't!" I said running up to him and tightly wrapping my arms around his torso. "Don't cry, please. I hate seeing guys cry." I said looking up at him while he tried to wipe them away.

"Why are you hugging me, you should be running away from me." He said looking somewhere else in the house not making eye contact with me. 

"Just shut up and hug me back before I do run away." I said still staring up at him.

He finally looked down at me about thirty seconds later and wrapped his arms around me.

"I'm so sorry." he sniffled as he bent down to rest his chin on my head. 

"I forgive you." I mumbled into his hoodie.

"Mia." He said getting my attention. 

"Mmhm." I hummed. 

"I love you." He said taking his chin off of my head to look at me. 

I froze not believing what he say. I looked up at him with my eyes beginning to water.

"I love you too." I said feeling a happy tear fall from my eye.

"You do?" He said not believing me. I rapidly nodded my head as I kept eye contact with him. 

A big grin spread across his face. "Can I kiss you now, because I've really been feeling like shit and missing you like crazy." He said.

I bit my lip and smiled. I nodded my head and he bent down and kissed me soft and slow. 

"Awww." We heard coming from behind us. We broke apart and I turned around and Michael looked up. The boys were standing there with smiles on their faces. 

"Shut up." Michael said squinting his eyes. "We knew you guys would make up." Ashton said.

"You guys are to cute together, it makes me wanna wrap you guys up and put you in my pocket." Luke said sarcastically. "Just stop." Michael said shaking his head. 

"Okay so are we all good here, Mia you don't need me to kick his ass still." Calum said walking over to us. I shook my head and laughed. 

"Okay good, But...Michael, if you ever do hurt her again I will kick your ass, harder than I did to the pizza guy." Calum said looking straight at Michael as he pointed a finger at him.

Michael furrowed his eyebrows together. "What pizza guy?" He asked. 

Calum looked over at Luke and Luke quickly shook his head.

"Nothing, Nobody." He said quickly walking away. 

Michael looked at me waiting for an explanation. "Its nothing to worry about, I'll tell you later." I said smiling. He nodded his head.

"Okay, so who wants to go get food." Ashton said.

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Hey guys thanks for reading this chapter, I don't have much to say except for sorry for any spelling errors, and sorry it took me a while to update but please continue reading. Ex.