Pain

Moving out

Song~ Atlas Hands by Benjamin Francis Leftwich.

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My breath began to quicken and my heart began to race. Why did I just say that, what the hell is wrong with me. I don't hate Michael, Yeah he pissed me off to where I don't even want to look at his face or even hear his name but I don't hate him, we shared great memories with each other and things that some people are afraid to tell someone else. He may have said some things to me tonight that I'm pretty sure I won't be able to forgive him for but I don't hate him, so I'm not sure why I said that. But the things he did say to me tonight crushed my heart in all sorts of ways I'm not sure how I don't hate him.

My eye's were glued to the end of the driveway where I last saw Michael.

"Come on, let's go inside." I heard October say.

"NO!" I yelled.

I broke my arms free from Danny and Octobers grip and walked up to the boys.

"Which one of you have my key's." I asked as I stuck my hand out and waited for one of them to place them in my hand.

The boy's just stared at each other and looked at me.

"I do." Luke said with a blank stare.

"Okay then, hand them over." I said.

"No." He said.

"Give me my key's Luke, their mine, not yours." I said.

"So." He said.

"Mia were not going to let you leave, especially since you just woke up after being drugged." Ashton said.

"Look I'm fine okay, my stomach just feels a bit weird but I'm fine okay, now can you just give me my keys now!" I said.

"Where are you planning on even going." Calum said.

"HOME! Where else do you think!" I said.

They just stood there and looked over at October, Danny and Jackson.

I waited for about ten more seconds before I finally got fed up.

I angrily started walking down the driveway as the boy's called out my name.

"What are you gonna do? Are you gonna walk home, cause it will probably take about two hours from here since your walking!" I heard Luke say.

"Does it look like I care!" I said as I turned around and threw my hands up in the air as I walked backwards.

They glared at me and I turned back around and kept walking.

Once I reached the gate I threw my head back in frustration since I just realized that I didn't know the code.

I looked over at the boys to see that they were smiling so I gave them the finger and looked back at the gate.

I saw that underneath the gate there was an opening big enough for me to slide under.

I looked at the boy's as I got down on my stomach and began to shimmy my way under the gate.

There smiles dropped off of there face as I made my way all the way through the bottom of the gate.

I stood to my feet and waved goodbye at them as I walked away from the gate until I was out of sight.

I began walking down the cold, dark street as I listened to the tap my shoes made when they hit the asphalt.

I remember when I got these shoes to. I was walking past a shoe store when I saw these black converse in the window of the shoe store and I look down at the one's I was wearing to see that they was old and falling apart. So I asked my parents if they could give me money for some new shoes and I basically got their bedroom door slammed in my face for wasting there time but I didn't stop trying there. Every day I would ask my mom for five dollars for lunch and when she did actually give me the money I would take it and hide it in a slot that was in my closet until I had enough saved up for the shoes.