Pain

So We Meet Again

Song~ Always by Blink -182

It had been a week since the wedding and I haven't had any kind of contact with Michael since. Im not gonna lie, I do miss him a lot and I still deeply love him but I'm still thinking about what to do. I haven't had any contact with the boys either and I miss them to but I know there probably trying to keep Michael from coming over here and seeing me since the boys know I wanted time to think for a bit. I love Michael I really do and I still want to be with him but I'm not sure if now's a good time, im still hurting from when he actually believed Danny even though I know its not Michael's fault but still, I just feel like if he loves me as much as he says he does then he wouldn't have let his anger upset him because of what Danny said. Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm right but all I know is that I want to forgive him and go find him and run into his arms but at the same time I want to just hide underneath my blankets and cry and let my heart heal slowly.

I sat in the kitchen as I stared at my glass of water that sat still and quiet. 

My sprained hand was hurting and so was I.

"Hey how you doing?" My aunt asked breaking me out of my deep thoughts.

I quickly crossed my arms and tucked in my hand so she wouldn't see it. I wonder how long she's been standing in front of me?

I haven't told her about Michael and I yet, but I desperately want to. I know she'd tell me the right thing to do.

"Oh um, I'm fine." I said finally giving her an answer even though I'm really not.

She smiled at me and sat down on the kitchen counter. "So, I have some exciting news, well its exciting for me." She said smiling ear to ear.
I tried my best to give her a good smile. "What is it?" I asked trying to sound excited.

"Okay well, that night at the wedding I met this incredibly gorgeous guy with dark brown hair and hazel eyes, and a sweet smile, so I gave him my number and he called me a few hours ago wanting to know if I was doing anything later. Of course I said no, so he asked to take me out to dinner and I'm pretty sure were gonna come back here after." She said laughing.

I cracked a real smile and laughed for the first time in a week.

"So I was wondering in case we do come back here, if maybe you could stay with Michael or something, I just dont want it to be awkward you know." She laughed.

I frowned a bit when she said Michael.

"Um Michael and I uh, were kind of taking a small break." I said frowning.

"What happened?" She asked devestated.

"Its a long story." I said quietly.

"Mia, I have all the time in the world, well maybe just until eight o'clock, thats the time Jeff's picking me up." She said smiling.

So his name's Jeff?

I sighed preparing myself to tell her everything that had happened the night at the wedding.
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Once I told her everything she was sad that me and Michael were taking a break but she completely understood, but she was a bit mad that I sprained my hand by hitting it against the asphalt until it was gushing with blood.

I also told her about his anger and blackouts and the mini fight we had in the lot where all the car's were parked.

"You know, I once dated a guy that had anger problems but not as bad as Michael but I remember that he would do everything in the world he could to protect me and keep me happy but the only person he couldn't protect me from was himself, he loved me so much that he ended things between us cause he didn't want to hurt me so bad one day that he could never forgive himself for. I remember I couldn't sleep or eat for a long time because I missed him so much and I just wanted to be in his arms so desperately but I knew he was only staying away because he didn't want to hurt me if he got upset over something." She said.