"I smoke now Phil"I slowly nodded looking at the tall, pale man before me. He closed the front door standing next to me, it was silent. Until we both spoke at the same time.
"I me-"
"Rea-"
"Sorry, you talk" I chuckled feeling my cheeks heat up, Phil let out a small laugh before talking.
"I'm really glad to see you Violet...It's been so long" He sighed and i nodded not really knowing what to say; "I didn't expect to see you here, how have you been?"
"I've been pretty good" I shrugged taking a drag of my cigarette. I blew out the smoke before starting to talk again; "I have a kid now...James, he's four and my boyfriend Kian. We've been living in America for nearly four years now"
"I didn't realise you had a son either...Violet me and Dan...when we saw him tonight we maybe thought there was a possibility-"
"I don't know who his father is, Phil stop it" I snapped looking at him, my eyes trailed down as my mind flew back four years. The day I brought home that stupid kitten, Dan had gone out and that's when it happened. *** "Dans been distant lately" I said looking over at Phil as we watched Anime, he looked up from editing his new video his eyes blue and bright as they always were.
"Hmm?" He hummed clearly not hearing my statement.
"I said Dan...he's been weird lately as if he's hiding something" I said fiddling with the end of my jumper sleeve.
"I'm sure it's nothing V, besides he wouldn't keep a secret from you" Phil said patting my thigh comfortingly then going back to editing.
"I think he read my diary...he keeps saying things that I've already said as if he's hinting it at me" I blurted out and Phil put his laptop on the side table.
"Violet...I don't know what to say but I'm here if you want to talk"
"What if he just doesn't love me anymore? Or he found somebody better, oh god Phil what if he hates me been insecure and is gonna leave me, what if-" I rambled but getting cut off by Phil smashing his lips onto mine. My hands flew around his neck as he deepened the kiss.
"Phil stop-" I said pushing him off and looking down, "What are we doing? We can't do this to Dan"
"Dan doesn't have to know" he said kissing me again, I knew it was wrong but I kissed back anyway. I pulled away standing up and taking Phil's hand leading him into his room.
***
"Violet" Phil said snapping me out of my gaze, I looked at him realising my cigarette was smoking itself away and I took a drag letting the smoke then trail from my cold lips.
"Forget I asked anything" he said quietly going back inside, I looked down as Kian then walked out smiling at me.
"Everything alright babe?" He asked, and I nodded looking up at him. Kian kissed the top of my head as I dropped my cigarette stamping on it.
"I love you" I said hugging him tightly, he chuckled hugging me back.
"I love you too, what's this all about?"
"I just don't want anything to get in the way of us...our little family"
"V...nothing is going to get in the way of us, me you and James were gonna be a family forever I promise"
I nodded looking at the open door where Dan was watching us from the living room. He looked away when he saw me and I felt incredibly guilty. Dan and Phil did have the right to know that James could be either one of there's. But I was too scared to say anything. So I was going to get this Christmas over with and go back to what I usually do.
Run away from it.
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