The state of dreaming♡//Sequel to Teen idol

4.

Chapter four.
Sober at last.

"I don't know what to do with him" I sighed as Zoe and me made Christmas cookies, Dan was upstairs asleep in Zoe and Alfie's bed. Kian and James were also on the way here.

"Have you told Kian yet?" She asked looking up at me with a worried look. I shook my head looking down at my hands.

"Violet, Dan is shouting for you" Alfie said walking in with Melanie. Dropping my rolling pin I nodded walking out and upstairs, Dan was half asleep under the duvet of the bed and he smiled as he saw me enter.

"What is it Dan?" I sighed sitting on the bed beside him. He giggled looking up at me and I moved some hair from his face.

"I feel sick, can you lay with me?" He pouted, I shook my head no knowing it was wrong of me. He sighed moving so his head was on my lap, I played with his hair staring at the wall. Thinking about how different it'd be if I hadn't left Dan all those years ago. I imagined us making Christmas dinner together, Phil coming over and James been excited that Santa had been. I forgot the thought when I heard soft snores coming from dan's chapped lips.

I moved him carefully and walked out of the room glancing at him once more before shutting the door quietly. I questioned why i was even allowing myself to be nice to Dan, after all him and me ended badly then never spoke for four years. But i couldn't help it, it was like i was just opening the 'Come in!' Door to Dan like i always have done.

I took a deep breath closing my eyes and leaning against the door. Covering my face i let out a muffled scream feeling irritated with myself.

"Violet" Somebody said and i jumped moving my hands to see Alfie.

"You scared me" I chuckled.

"Is he asleep yet?" He asked and I nodded, Alfie sighed before putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Your okay right?"

"Yeah why?"

"You don't seem...yourself" he shrugged walking off to the bathroom, I shook it off walking downstairs. Kian and James were sat in the living room watching some Christmas film with Zoe and Melanie. James jumped up running to hug me and I smiled hugging back.

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-Dans POV-

I woke up in what looked like Zoe and Alfie's bedroom, I was slightly confused and my head hurt a lot. I remember going to find Violet after I'd gotten utterly smashed in a bar after arguing with my fiancé Hayden.

After getting out of bed not been able to find my phone I walked downstairs into the kitchen too see Violet doing some crossword at the kitchen island. She was wearing glasses, that were slightly down her nose, her hair was kind of messy but not obviously messy. Her eyes lifted up and she looked so effortlessly gorgeous.

"Good afternoon, Zoe, Alfie and Kian took the kids out so its just me and you" she slightly smiled before looking back at her crossword, biting her lower lip in concentration.

"Plus, everyone thought it'd be better for me to explain how drunk you got, and how you kissed me, and you're fiancé shoved me and Kicked you out"  I looked at Violet horrified as she still carried on with what she was doing. She took a sip of her tea before pushing her glasses up and starting to talk again.

"Phil is on his way to get you, don't worry" I nodded sitting across from her, Violet smiled at me and i felt my stomach churn. That smile caused me so much pain but so much happiness at the same time. One part of me wanted to just grab her and kiss her and tell her we could be together, but then another part of me wanted to shout and scream and argue with her out of anger.

"We always end up back here...Together, don't you think?" She shrugged getting up from her seat, "Tea?" She asked and i nodded.

"I'm getting married next month, how crazy is that?" I slightly chuckled and she looked away from me walking to make my tea; "You, James and Kian are welcome to come"

"I'll think about it, considering your fiance hates me i doubt she would want me at her wedding"

"I want you there...I don't mind because you're my friend and just because your my ex it doesn't mean we- Actually yeah that sounds weird" I laughed and she laughed too pouring the tea into a mug and handing it to me.

We sat in silence for awhile, i watched her as she did her crossword. Sometimes helping her when she got stuck, it was nice.

"Phils taking forever" I chuckled as we got up and walked through to the living room. "Hey a piano!" I shouted like a child on Christmas not realising the piano in the room this whole time.

"Teach me how to play something" Violet said sitting at it, I sat next to her.

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"Do it gently, not so rough" I said placing a hand  on Violets and helping her play, my other arm found its way around her waist.

"Your so good at this and I'm just not" she sighed looking at me, Phil had text her saying he was running late about an hour ago. I looked back at Violet and we both just stared at each other.

"If you work harder you'll get it I promise" I said quietly as I leaned in brushing my lips over hers, violets breathing hitched as I questioned for a second if I should kiss her.

So I did, she kissed back at first wrapping her arms around my neck. This was the problem with me and Violet, we fall for each other too easily now. As if we hadn't even had four years apart.

The kiss got more intense and I was pulling her as close as possible. The kiss wasn't meaningful though, it was needy and rough, not soft and gentle. I knew this meant nothing to either of us.

"Dan stop" she said pushing me away as I tried to lift her top up. I looked at her disappointed; "We can't do this, I'm sorry...I can't do this to Kian" she got up walking out of the room and I was left alone.