Beyoncé has a secret. Nobody knows what it is and she plans to keep it that way. She's been running from it for so long that she barely remembers that part of her life until a rose appears on her doorstep.
First story.
I'm sensitive about my shxt.
"Come on Blue Blue time to wake up." "I'm tired mommy. Can I stay with you today?" she said sleepily. "Mommy has to go to work today so you have to go to school." "We can stay home together?" I laughed, "Maybe another time." "How about tomorrow?" "Little girl." I said laughing. "Hurry up before you're late." "Okay, we can try this again tomorrow." I swear this girl is too grown for me.
After I sat her clothes out on her bed, I went back to my room to finish getting dressed. "Blue come on so I can do your hair." "Here I come." "Okay come on so you're not late." "But I haven't had breakfast yet." she said as she sat between my legs. "I'll pick you up some pancakes from McDonald's on the way to school okay?" "Yay!" I've never been this behind in taking Blue to school. I don't see how single parents do this on a daily. "Mommy?" "Yes baby?" "When's daddy coming home?" "I'm not sure sweetie but I don't want you worrying about that okay." "You said he went to run errands. My friend Nicole at school said her daddy went to the store and he never came back." Blue said sadly. "Baby look at me," I said as I stopped doing her hair. "Your daddy is coming back. He wouldn't just leave you like that okay." She nodded and I gave her a hug. Soon we left out the door and I dropped her at school.
"He still hasn't come home?" "Ain't that what she just said Kelly?" "I'm still confused as to why he left in the first place." "Bey it has to be deeper than what you're telling us." "I told y'all we argued because I don't want to go to Houston." "And you not letting Blue go with him? What's up with that?" Michelle asked. "I don't want her seeing all this death. She's too young." "And you not wanting to go?" "Y'all know my family died there. It'll just bring back too many memories that I'm not ready for." I said as a tear escaped. "Beyoncé, I'm gone be real with you because I love you like a sister. You have got to let that hurt go. There was nothing you could do." Kelly said holding my hand. "Yeah Bey, you were young. No one ever expects for their family to be taken from them in such a tragic way." Michelle added. "I know but-" "No buts. You should go to Houston with Shawn. He's hurting too Bey. He lost his older brother at a young age just like you lost your family at a young age." Michelle said. "But make him pay for not calling you." Kelly said. "Oh trust when I see him it's on sight." We all laughed and continued our lunch.
"Okay you girls go home safely." I hated I had to close my office early today. But what could I do? I drove off to pick up Blue from school because I doubt Shawn would do it. He's been MIA since we had that argument. I pulled up, parked my car and went inside to get my child.
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I walked into the auditorium and when Blue spotted me she ran towards me. "Hi mommy!" "Hey! Were you good in school today?" "Mhmm." I signed her out and then we left the school parking lot driving home. "When we get home I want you to change out of your school clothes and do whatever homework you have." "Yes ma'am." When we pulled up I spotted Jay's car and a sense of relief came over me. But that quickly went away and anger came over me. "Daddy's home, daddy's home!" Blue shouted. I pulled into the driveway and Blue immediately got out and ran to the door. "Hurry mommy!" "I'm coming child." I opened the door and she flew in the house like Usain Bolt. "DADDY WHERE ARE YOUUUUU!" "Blue Ivy stop that yelling!" "Here I am baby girl." Jay smiled coming out the kitchen. She ran to him and he picked her up smiling. It made my heart smile to see them like this. Wait a minute. Fuck this. This nigga been MIA for two dam days! "Daddy where were you I missed you so so so so so so much." He chuckled, "I know and I'm sorry for not telling you." "Blue can you go do what mommy asked you to do in the car?" "But daddy just got here." "I know baby, but he'll be here when you get back." I said as I eyed Shawn. "Will you?" she asked him. "Of course I will." he smiled. Blue went upstairs to change. I walked past Shawn and went to my office. I sat in my chair and closed my eyes. I began to cry a little. How could he do this to me? A few minutes later there was a knock on the door. I dried my eyes and guess who walked in.
Jay POV
"Can we talk?" "Oh now you want to talk?" she said bitterly. "Where were you Shawn?" "Beyoncé I know I-" "No! Where the fuck were you Shawn?!" "I needed to clear my head." "For two dam days?! Do I look like boo boo the fool nigga!" I sighed, "I should have called." "More like answered my dam calls. What if Blue got hurt or was sick? You was just gone continue to ignore me?" I looked away feeling bad. "I'm going to ask you one last time. Where did you go for two days?" "Brooklyn." "You went to your mom's house?" "No, I went to our old apartment." We kept our old apartment for times when either of us wanted to get away from the stress from our lives or just have a short vacation for the two of us. "And you didn't think you should tell me?" "I just buried my cousin Giselle! You were being insensitive about my brother! I needed an escape." "Don't call me that. You know how I feel about that." "FUCK!" I yelled making her flinch. "What about my feelings?! Huh? Or do you not give a dam about what I feel?" "I do care about your feelings, the fuck?" "You're missing the point Bey." I said calming down. "Every year I ask you to go visit my brother's grave with me. Ever since I made you my girlfriend, and you've always said no. I was cool with it when we were dating because you would still call and check on me. But you're my wife now, and I need you to physically be there for me." "I'm listening to every word you're saying. But can you see things from my point of view? I wouldn't ask you to go somewhere that brought you bad memories that you weren't willing to face." "See that's the difference. I'm facing my fears. You have to learn to face yours Bey." "Right now I'm not ready." she said lowly. I went towards her and she looked up at me with tears in her eyes. "Bey can you please do this for me. It'll only be for one weekend. If you feel uncomfortable then I promise we will be on the next flight home." I kissed her lips for a little more persuasion. "I'll go." she finally said. "Really?" "Mhmmm, I talked to the girls and they said I should go for you and to get closure for myself." "Basically what I've been saying all these years?" "I wasn't ready then and I'm still not. But I'm willing to try." I smiled, "That's all I ask. Plus I already booked the flight." "So you just knew I was gone say yes?" "No, but I was hoping I could persuade you into going." I said kissing on her neck. "Mmmmm that feels good." she moaned. "But I have to fix dinner." "I could order out." I said still working on her neck. "Another time, I'm making chicken alfredo." she said pushing me back a little. "Oh and Jay?" "Hm?" "Don't ever in your life send me to voicemail again." "Babe my phone died." I chuckled. "Nigga I don't give a dam. Just try me and see what happens." She said exiting her office. Sometimes I think she was a thug in a previous life.
Solange POV
"Come on ref that kid is fouling!" "Sit down Solange, you'll embarrass him." Daniel said. "I don't give a dam, ain't nobody gone be pushing my baby." "He good Piaget, his uncle taught him well." Andre said with his chest puffed out. "I'm just glad he not playing football, her ass would be on the dam field jacking somebody's kid up." I waved both of them off.
The game was over and my baby's team won. I know he's only in elementary school but he'll be in junior high next year. These kids now a days play rougher than they used to. How do I know? Yeah we used to sneak out the house a few times and we'd watch Andre play some of the neighborhood kids. "That was a good game baby." I told my son giving him a big hug. "Thanks ma." "You did good lil man." Dre said dapping him up. "You want to celebrate tonight?" Daniel asked. "I still feel a little sick, so not tonight." "You still feeling sick?" I asked. "Relax Solange, it's only been a week. He still has a week left to take his medicine." "Daniel I swear if he doesn't recover by next week..." "Chill, he'll be fine. You saw him on the court tonight." "Dam. Uh yo we gotta go." my brother said looking at his phone. "What you mean 'we'? I'm technically on vacation." "It's an emergency back home." "Mom you leaving me?" Julez said looking upset. I sighed, "I'll be back by tomorrow night. I promise." "Pinky promise?" he said with his pinky out. I smiled, "Pinky promise." "Solange." "I know, I know. But I wouldn't be going if it weren't. I'll be back before you both go to sleep tomorrow." I said kissing his lips. "Alright be careful." "I'm always careful." I walked away with my brother. This had better be a big ass emergency. I'm leaving my son for this shit.
