See Me Now (Mirry: Harry Styles&Michael Clifford)

Chapter 5

*Niall's POV*

It's been three days since I flooded the living room with water and Uncle Haz still hasn't spoken to me. The only thing he does is following me everywhere to see what I'm doing. I don't really dare to move now, so the only thing I do is helping with dinner, eating in silence, doing my homework, my extra math work and going to bed. I haven't seen Mike anymore... Maybe he is mad at me for sending him away, I don't know, but I decided to grow up. 

Seeing Uncle Haz that mad and desperate... No, I can't handle that... He is the only one I have left, the only one who wants to take care of me and I don't want him abandoning me... I'll find another friend later, who needs Mike right?!

Who am I even kidding, I need Mike... I need him a lot, but I can't. Not as long as he can't show himself to Uncle Haz. I won't go to the doctor's, I won't do it... But I miss Michael so much. He is like the big brother I never had. He believes in me, the real me, the young kid, with loads of fantasy and the sad background trying to find a balance between being serious and playful, trying to find the right path to follow in life.

I know big boys don't cry, but I have been crying myself to sleep for the past two nights. Yes, I've been bad and I deserved the punishment, but the foul look in Uncle Haz' eyes and Mike missing... I feel so empty, so alone and so confused. Somehow I know that I have to say sorry to my uncle, but I don't know how I should do that and on the other hand I need to find my Mike back. Unfortunately I can only have one... I will either have to choose between the only family I have left or the only friend I ever had... Not sure how many times a heart can break, but it has been doing that non stop for the past three days.

I'm at Uncle Haz' work, sitting in an empty room at an old wooden desk doing my homework. This is probably the most boring place I have ever been in, yet I'm still procrastinating my homework. Normally Mike would be sitting next to me, he would help me out, explain the things I don't get... Being him around him made me smarter, being without him makes me stupid... Even more stupid than I was before.

Uncle Haz' voice becomes harder, it's laced with impatience .

"Louis, it is not that hard to understand. My cousin is going mental... It's not normal to see a guy, nor is it normal that the guy is around my age or that I cannot see him. What is he? A pervert, a rapist, a figment of his imagination, a dream... Seriously, I need to get him looked at Lou!"

I could practically hear him roll his eyes and throw his hands in the air.

"Harry, look, you are my boss and I know I have to respectful, but shut up. Have you ever thought about another option? Maybe Michael is a figment of Niall's imagination, think about it... It could be more than a tumour or him being schizophrenic. Answer these questions okay? When did Michael appeared for the first time in Ni's life. Well the first time you are aware of?"

"Euhm, a few days after we kept the 'funeral'."

"Okay, what is this Mike doing with Niall?"

"He is playing this freaking games with him, games that he shouldn't be playing..." 

"Right, whatever... What reason did Niall give for you not being able to see his friend."

"That I just had to become young at heart again... But that's got nothing to do with this."

"Yes, it does..."

"No it doesn't, Niall is just young, making stupid mistakes. Besides it's not Michael telling him these things, it's his own mind. He acts like a two year old Lou!"

"He isn't, djeez, just shut up and listen to me! This Michael guy is doing everything that you aren't doing! He is playing games with Niall, telling him that it is okay to be young and have fun and use your imagination. You also told me that Niall's grades are getting better, but you aren't helping him with his homework, cause you use that time to do some housework. You told me that yourself... So it is actually Michael helping him. Michael is being a brother, a friend, a roll model Ni is missing, cause you are too busy controlling his life! Look Harry, I get it... it's hard on you... You don't want him to make bad mistakes that can ruin his future, you want to give him all the chances you never got, but you can't. The only thing you can help Ni with is being young and teaching him things through games and fun times... Being there when he needs you, when he did something stupid or when he has questions or when he just wants a hug."