Rants And Life Updates 3

for fucks sake

I'm being a total fucking bitch today

I'm pissed off and stressed out because I have to fucking recite a poem by memory tomorrow and I'd rather break my fucking leg than recite it

And I brought bad vibes to the Skype chat and now the atmosphere is shitty and it's all my fucking fault but I'm too pissed off at the school to care

I've-

You know what

Fuck it

I'm not fucking reciting it by memory I'm using the fucking paper and I don't even give a shit

Wow I swear more when I'm pissed

And then I told my mom I'm not using the paper because I know I'll panic and freak the fuck out and forget it all

And I'm like "yo I can't recite by memory I'm socially anxious"

And then she tells me I don't fucking have it because I fucking told her if I couldn't directly go to hoco with my friend that I'd meet her there and that a socially anxious person wouldn't be able to do that

I SAID THAT BECAUSE I KNEW I WOULDN'T BE ALONE AT HOCO

I KNEW I'D HAVE FRIENDS I COULD MEET UP WITH

I PANICKED ON FRIDAY FOR FUCKING PUTTING IN MY FUCKING SCHOOL ID NUMBER TO BUY SOME DAMN FROYO AT SCHOOL

BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO WASTE OTHER PEOPLE'S TIME BY PUNCHING IT IN WRONG

I MADE MY FRIEND GET HERS FIRST BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO ASK FOR FROYO INCORRECTLY

SO I'M PISSED OFF AND STRESSED OUT AND ANXIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING AND I WANNA CRY AND I'M PRETTY SURE I'M GETTING MY FUCKING PERIOD AGAIN

HAHA NOW I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO WANT TO DIE