Lost for words (justin bieber fanfic)

Chapter 9 please hold me and dont let go

Emma prov
We went down for lunch with the kids. Justin is really funny and good with kids he would make a good dad some day to one lucky girl. after lunch we played hide and seek. Me and Justin helped Jaxon find a place to hide because jazzy was it first. we hid him behind the couch. Once he was in a good place me and Justin began to ran down the hall way to find somewhere else to hide. just then I tripped over something and hit my head on the wall. I remember something like this happening. I was leaning up agents the wall. Justin looked very worried "baby are you ok?" he asked. I remover this feeling pain running though my head will I'm being pined up agents this wall. "I'm fine done worry about it" I said knowing he was panicking and freaking out. I tried to get up but I just fell back down because I was dizzy but I'm lucky Justin was there to catch me. he slowly set me down on the floor. "where does it hurt we need to take you to the hospital!" he said looking at my head trying to see if I was bleeding "no Justin I'm fine I swear its does not ever hurt that much" just then jazzy came running down the hall and jumped on Justin's back. " I found you your it" she yelled. Justin quickly got her off of him and keep trying to see if I was ok again "are you ......" he started but got cut off "but I got you your it your it now!" she yelled happy and jumped on him again. I started to rub my head where it hurts. " please Emma you need help!" he said "no I'm fi......" I was cut if by jazzy "I got you I really did!!" she yelled "JAZZY SHUT UP I SAID NOT NOW!!" he screamed him her face with angry in his eyes scaring me there was something about the look and anger on his face that scared me so much I just wanted to ran away but jazzy was already ahead of me. she started to tear up then ran off. just then pattie stormed in "Justin what the hell is wrongs with you?!" she must of heard him then see looked down at me and realised I had fell and gave me a pity look.

Justin's prov
Jazzy ran off crying. I looked down at Emma to see the fear she had that night..... what have I done I keep scaring the ones I live away what is wrong with me. just them mum came in yelling she must of hurt. she looked at Emma then me. she gave me a look to say did you do it again?!. she thought I hit her again. I could never EVER do that to Emma again no matter what I love her more then anything if she was not with me now I would have taken my own life out of gilt because we know that's all of this is my fault. " Are you sure you are ok?" I asked her one more time she nodded and rubbed her head again. knowing she was ok I ran up to are room and slammed the door shut. I though my self on my bed in anger. There was no way I'm going back down there now my own sister thinks I'm a monster let alone Emma and the rest of my family.i went to twitter and uploaded "why I'm I like this I hurt the ones I love the most and push everyone away What did I do to deserve this?!" then I turned my phone off. just then dad walked in and sat next to me on the bed "I know it's hard for you buddy but you just need to relax and under stand we all are going though the same thing" he said making one tear escape my eye. "why am I suck a monster I scare everyone away and everyone hates me for it!" I yelled feeling so hurt and empty in side. "No man you can be any feather from the truth Emma loves you, you just need to give her time to remember that sometimes and jazzy she's fine just a little taken back cos she though it was just all a game" he told me "so how's Emma's head then is she ok do I need to take her to the hospital " I asked "see there is my caring, love son that Emma feel in love with.... that the world feel in love with, you just need to show that side more fortune" he explained making me smile a little "thanks dad" "it's ok we are gonna get going now anyway just call us if you need anything" "ok bye" and with that he walked out of my room. "bye Justin " I heard them call out but I just could not answer.

Emma's prov
I was at the door saying good bye to Justin's family he would not even say good bye to them. "don't worry about it hun just give him a bit of time alone he just needs time to calm down and relax trust me he is as broken as you are" pattie told me just as she walked out the door and shut it behind her. What does she mean I'm not broken at all nothing bad has happened to me why would I be broken?!. I looked at the clock and it was 5pm. I decide to do what pattie said and just give him some time to calm down. I went in to the kitchen and began to cook. I had no idea what was going on but my body was moving its self and putting food together here and there. After half an hour I had made something I don't know what it was but it tasted good. I went up to see Justin and give him some food. when I was up there he was just laying in the bed watching tv "umm I made you some dinner" I said slowly opening the door and handing it to him. he took it and began to eat "are you ok?!" I asked him "yer but shoulder I be asking you that?" he said talking about my head "you already did and that meant to much to me! " I told him as I saw a small quick smile that if I blink I would have miss it. he looked so tired " ok I don't care what you say when you are done that we are going to bed!" I explained "but whyyyy?! " winded like a little kid "because you are still tired from last night that's why!" I told him "and god knows how much you sleep while I was out" "ok but I'm not happy about it" he said making me laugh. why does he always make me do this. one minute we are laughing next we are in tear I would hate to know what we where like before I bet it was fights all the time I though to my self. When Justin was done I got changed and toke his plate down stairs. I came back up to find him on the bed with no top on damn it was soooo hot those abs. I slowly got in to bed and turned the lights off. Justin wrapped his arms around me and I just pushed them back off. I heard a grunt come from him "I'm sorry I'm still not ready I don't really know you that much still!" I told him "what the point going to bed early if I can't hold the one thing that I can't sleep with out" he said pissed off and sat up "then just get up or go sleep on the couch then I really don't care anymore" I said feeling the angry from him slowly become my own. He just got up and walked off just like that. i just feel bad now I did not know it would hurt him that much. I shut my eyes and slowly began to fall asleep.

Flashes of light beamed in my face, every time they did I could see a face, a male face but u could not make out who it was "I never loved you" he yelled I could not even tell who it was but some how some part if my brain did and would not tell me who it is but yet I hurt me hearing thoughts words as if this person was my world. it went dark again. then there was another beam of light but this time the guy swung at me making me flinch. I know he hit me but I just could not fell the pain. a girl began to speech "it's not meant to be like this we are meant to be in love " she sounded so upset and broken. I did not realise that the words where coming out of my mouth until the guy swung again. I was pinned up to the wall I could not move u could not do anything. everything was so dark I was scared for my life. it was like I had been here before. someone was trying to tell me something, to show me what has happened. All I could do was watch the unknown person swing at me. I know I was getting hit but I could not move I was to scared to. I opened my eyes and it was all dark but I was laying down. I was now able to move again. I sat up and screamed it seemed so real. I breathed heavily as if it was my last breaths. how could a dream seem so real. I began to cry out went I realised it was still so dark and no one was there. what if I was not dreaming and he is still in this room.

Justin's prov
I was down stairs watching tv. it was around 12 am, I really did not want to sleep. just then I heard Emma scream in are bed room making me jump. me heart started racing so fast. I jumped off the couch and began to run up the stairs to are room. I could hear her crying so loud and screaming. she seam so far away like I was stuck on these stair why the love of my life screams out for help. When I made it to are room I kick the door open and ran to her side not even bothering to turn the lights on because I know if just hearing her like this broke me what would seeing her like this do to me. I jumped on the bed and pulled her in to a hug . I pulled her on to my lap as she keep shaking and crying so hard. I had one hand tightly around her waist and the other holding her hand to my chest. she had her arms wrapped around my waist as if she lest go she will never see me again. "Shhh baby I'm hear now it ok" I said slowly rocking her as she cried hard in to my chest "ju Justin" she said "shhhh it me I'm here I've got you" she cried even harder in to my chest. I could fell a tear fall down my check but there was no way I was letting go of her to wipe it away she needs me. "I'm s so scared don't l l let go p please" she stuttered. "its ok I'm was not planing in it" I pulled her closer to me if that was even possible "don't leave pl please" she seamed so scared and afraid I'm just happy she is back in my arms. "shhh I got you , I got you" I whispered to her "shhhhhh it ok I'm here" she slowly moved her hands to around my neck and hide her head in my neck like she was trying to hind from something. "do you want me to sleep with you tonight?" I ask and she shock her head yes. I gently lied her down and I lied next to her. I pulled her as close in to my chest as I could and she snuggled up to my chest and slowly started to calm down. are legs where tangled together and are arms where around each others body afraid to let go of each other just like the good old days. her arms tightened around my body "j Justin?" she said "yes baby" I replied "please don't let go at all tonight " she said "of course not !!" "And if it happens again please wake me up and if I don't wake up just hold me tight so I know you are there" she explained as she calmed down a little more and I slowly began to shut my eyes knowing this would be the best sleep I have had in like forever. "please just hold me tight and don't let go all night" she said making me laugh a little "I promise " she was so scared and she needed me. What else could I do?!