Lost for words (justin bieber fanfic)

Chapter 13 im sure it was you

Emma's prov

After last night I have been starting to panic a little. I did not go back to sleep like Justin though I did. I almost had my finger on who it was and after staying up all night to work it out. I remember!. I'm almost a hundred present sure it was him. I'm swear it is Justin. He claims we where meant to be getting married but what if he just felt bad when he starting hitting me and knew it was his fault so he decided to hang around me to make sure I don't remember and if I did he can stop me from going and telling people. I'm so sure it was him which is what is scaring me so much. I never get to the end of the dream it always ends with me begging him to stop and saying its not meant to be like this and he just looks down at me with gilt in his eyes then I walk up. there can't be much more to it right. he must have throw one more hard punch that nocked me out and made me lose my memory. that last punch must have been so bad that my mind just does not want me to live it again so I always wake up before it. that has to be what happened right ?!. I have to ask Justin if it was him in the dream, I have to ask him what really happened and if I don't feel save around him anymore I will leave, I did not feel that save around him at the start but I will not at all knowing he was the one that did it to me. if what he keeps saying about us is true about how he really love me is true he will tell me the truth when I ask him. I was pulled out off my thoughts by Justin coming in to the room. I look around to see I was in the living room on the couch. hmmm I don't remember coming down here!.

" Hey baby what's up? " he ask me really calmly. "Justin ummm I, I need to talk to you about something!" I told him "and what would that be?" He asked not really looking away from what he was doing and not paying much attention to what I was saying. "Um I was, ar, I umm I though, I was wondering, um if" I could not find the words to say, making Justin finally look up at me. his face dropped when he saw me "baby what's wrong?!" he said running up to me and sitting next to me and put his arm around me. "What happened to me Justin?" I asked looking up in to his eye so I could see if he was going to lie to me "you, um you where in a car crash" he told me really nevus. he would not look in to my eyes at all. "Justin don't lie to me please" I said as I felt a single tear fall from my eye "I'm not lying!" He said kind of yelling. " YES YOU ARE JUSTIN WHY DO I KEEP HAVING THESE DREAMS ABOUT THIS BOY THAT KEEP HITTING ME EVERY NIGHT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN I SEE MORE OF HIM, EVER NIGHT THE DREAMS GET WORSE AND I BEGIN TO FIND OUT MORE THAT HAPPENED TO ME SO STOP LYING" I yelled at him. "baby I'm not lying I swear that how you lost your memory but the person hitting you that happened before you lost your memory" he said trying to calm me down "and how would you know this?!" I asked "because we live together!" he said trying to avoid telling me it was him who did this to me. " Justin do you know who it was?" I said more calm this time "yes" he said quickly "tell me who!" I exclaimed "no" he said fast again " why not?". "Because I can't!" he said looking away " it, it was you, all this time it was you. I have been living with you all along afraid that he would came back for me but I had my feelings that there was something off about you. how could you not tell me. how could you lie to me telling me this all happened in a car crash like it was my fault when you where the one that did this to me! you made me feel like I could not do anything right. all this time I had no idea who to trust and just as I began to trust you, you lie to me how I'm I meant to feel?" I yelled making him cry. he would not talk at all. " No really Justin please just tell me how I am meant to feel because I have no idea what is going on right now!" I yelled again. he whispered something but I could just hear it "how do you what me to feel?" "what was that Justin I can't hear you?" I said making him lose it. "I SAID HOW DO YOU THINK I AM MEANT TO FEEL ABOUT ALL OF THIS? I SEE YOU EVERYDAY KNOW IT WAS ALL MY FAULT KNOWING WHEN YOU DO REMEMBER YOU ARE GOING TO HATE ME, KNOWING I HURT YOU STARING TO HURT ME FROM THE INSIDE YOU CAN THINK WHAT YOU WANT BUT ONE THING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS THAT IT WAS SOMETHING I WOULD BEAT MY SELF UP ABOUT EVERYDAY SOMETHING I NEVER STOPPED THINKING ABOUT AND SOMETHING YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH IM SORRY FOR BUT ONE THINK I WILL NOT LET YOU DO IS CALL ME I LIER BECAUSE WHAT I DID IS NOT HOW WE GOT HERE TODAY!" he yelled the just stood there. I began to shake with fear just like the night it happened. what if he really loved me? is he going to hit me again?. just then he came at me making me flinch. but instead of the a sting on my body I was pulled in to a hug. I tried to push him off but he was just to strong. I gave up and cried in to his chest as he cried on my shoulder "I love you so so so much please I'm so sorry" he mumble. maybe he does need me more then I need him no matter how afraid I was and how much I did not believe we where ever a happy couple there was no way I could ever just leave him like this. no matter how much he scares me at times I do care for him and could never do that to him. my heart was telling me to stay. who knows maybe it was for the better? maybe once apon a time we where a happy couple. All I knew is that it has to get better from here right? "please I l love you so much" he cried "its ok I'm here" I said rubbing his back maybe he does really love me and need me more than I thought.



Hey guys let me know what u think. so Emma remembered the fight but she has not remembered the good times yet. don't forget to comment.