Never Yours

Chapter 1

Spencer Parks, Your going home, girl"." Front and center you know the drill." "Hands on the wall Spencer, spread'em. "Oh wow Barley you really need to work on your game, if thats the only line you have, your gonna be sitting in front of the T.V. in your dirty boxers eating T.V dinners every Saturday night". Chuckling he says " Girl, I am not gonna miss your smart mouth" . Barley is a 53 year old teddy bear. He lost his wife to cancer last year. They never had any children and he doesnt seem to feel a loss about that. Im glad he spent more time in my cell block than some of the other gaurds . They enjoyed the pat downs a little too much if you know what I mean. As he finished the pat down, I was quiet. This was the hardest part of being locked up . Random hands sliding all over your body. Always being treated like your not trustworthy. My hearts already beating out of my chest eyes squeezed tight. My chest is tightening, I cant breathe. Cold sweats. FUCK!! Can we get this over with already!?. 30 minutes, Ive been mentally counting down the last 4 months. Its been the worst experience of my life and I now have 26 minutes to go. Barley understood my aversion to the pat downs and kept them short. When he finished he led me out of the cell and into a long hallway. As we get to a door that has the number 5 on it he turns to me and says " stay outta these places girl, you dont belong here, you hear me?. Smiling I say "Yes Barley and thank you" "No, problem sweet girl, go on get on outta here". Walking in the conference room there sits my mom, looking beautiful as ever. Part of the reason im in here. My mother, Jessica Parks Johnson. She is beautiful. Waiste length Chocolate brown hair, striking Aqua blue eyes that were fanned out with full long dark lashes. Our eyes are a well talked about attribute. they have a little slant to them thanks to moms great great asaian grandmother. She also has pink full lips that men drool over. My mom is 7 months pregnant and at 35 is still super model gorgeous. Size Ds and model legs, tight body, and a butt that'd make Jaylo jealous. You couldnt tell she was pregnant other than the small ball that used to be flat. Im the younger version of my mother except the tatas, that gene totally missed me. My skin is also darker than my mothers natural skin color thanks to my dad's Hawaiin heritage. Im not super tan but I can maintain a tan all year and never have to fake bake. I'm gorgeous but not conceited. Ok so mabey just a little conceited. It doesnt matter anyways I only have ever cared about what one guy thought of me so I can say I dont have the big head my mother does. She also has a big bright "douche bag" vacancy light above her head. I'm on step dad number 4 and have had 7 runnners up. Ted is an alright guy I guess, he's never around so thats a plus. He's 33, super hot and plays on a Semi Pro Baseball team called the "Angels." They've been married a total of 5 months, that'd make my mom's 3rd longest relationship. My moms a super hot douche bag collector and a romantic at heart. She's also one of the most popular hair stylists in Arizona. She owns one of the

most popular beauty salons in our town called the "The Halo". We aren't rich but we're well off because of her talent. I've basically grown up a cosmetologist prodigy, I practically lived in my grandmas shop back in South Dakota. Since the day I was brought home from the hospital I was in that shop with mom and Grams. I could bleach hair, give a mani and a pedi by the time I was 8 years old. By the time I was 11 I knew all the color formulas right off the top of my head. I think my intelligence for math helped me with that. Yes I'm a smarty, but most of all I'm creative and artistic. Arts my passion. Design, Pottery, Photography, and fashion. Put a camera in my hand and Im in my own little world. Grams says I get that from her first husband my moms dad. You'd be amazed what you learn in a beauty shop. Thats where I learned about sex, and most of life's lessons, and social skills. Basically everything and anything is topic in a beauty shop. Thats where I was raised so its all my social skills.  I have no filter, I don't  embarrass, Im out spoken with a very laid back attitude unless you piss me off than its passive to CRAZY in 0.2 seconds.That I also get from my dad. My mom's been one of my best friends, but thats about it. I mean she did have me at 17 years old and She was raised the same way. She's never known how to be a parent. She Never had to grams basically raised us both untill she died. Grams passed when I was 9. We moved here about 3 months before I turned 10. After that mom just kinda wung the whole parenting thing. I've never had a curfew. I've been to umpteen parties and even been allowed to stay over night at my boyfriends house at the age of 14. My mom has a parenting policy "You dont use drugs" "You dont drink and drive" "Always use protection" "You get good grades" and thats it. I cant say that I've actually ever needed rules I've been a pretty good kid. Yes I partied, I've never used drugs, I carry a 4.0 and I work in the shop with mom to make some extra cash. Not that I needed to my mom's not greedy, her and grams have spoiled me with the finer things in life.What can I say I am a girl. I like being dressed up and love having great hair. One thing I can say about my mother is that she's always worked hard 6 days a week 12 hours a day on her feet to make sure we could afford all the polishings. I guess I can say I'm pretty lucky to have a mom that provides and takes great care of me. She hasn't always made the best decisions according to men, and her bad decision making has always effected our lives drastically, like her latest stunt . But what parent is perfect? She's done what she could and we've been pretty blessed in our life. Nice House, Nice Cars, and Nice Clothes. I mean I can't wear armani like Jaren and we dont have a ten million dollar house like his, but its still a nice house and I wear most top of the line clothing. A lot I got free or really cheap when I did department store modeling. Thats another thing my moms really good at "bargaining" we get alot of clothes, shoes, and furniture we'd never be able to afford because my mom finds a "Bargain" Or "trades" for it. Last year she got me a pair of the "Iconic collection Louibitons" from the department store manager who just happen to need her and her wedding party's hair done. Mom had told her no for that day because that was her only weekend off in six months. Ms Claire bartered with those shoes and I got amazing shoes to wear to Junior prom. My mom's also very selfless when it comes to me and her "man at the moment" , she gives her all and that's how we get in these binds. Our relationship has been strained the last few months , Ive just recently started to not resent her. I mean she is my mom, I do love her, but I dont think I could ever forgive her. I've lost the love of my life and my best friend. He is now my enemy, my bully, and the reason I've spent the last 4 months of my life in Arizona State Juvenile Detention.