Never Yours

chapter 7

I barely made it home stopping every few blocks, I could hardly see through my tears to drive. I walked in and mom was standing in the kitchen. Instantly I layed into her calling her viscious names and replaying the story Jaren had told me. she swore she never slept with Eddie Baluzi, that he'd hit on her and showed up at the shop all the time but shed never even went out with him. She did admit to having an affair with Jarens dad, Andreas and she was indeed pregnant but with Teds baby not Andreas'. She said that her and Andreas' affair was platonic. Basically to scratch an itch. Sometimes not seeing each other for months at a time and that she'd met Ted and really liked him. She wanted more from Ted than he was aparently ready to give so they'd stopped seeing each other but not before she got pregnant. When Andreas came to her that night and I caught him coming out of the bedroom the next morning, she decided she couldnt do it anymore that she was in love with Ted and now they are trying to work it out. I don't know why but I believe her.
I've missed the last 2 weeks of school barely making it out of bed to go to the bathroom. I can't eat so I sleep and my body is sore from all the heart wrenching sobs. Mom came in the first week and tried to talk. Now she just opens the door to check on me. Lorna has actually blown up my phone wondering how I've been and if Im ok. Ive just started answering her texts. Aparently the whole school heard that Jaren broke up with me and I went Bat shit crazy on him. They didnt know why. The only good thing is the fact that Jaren graduated last year so I wont have to see him if and when I decide to go back. He does have some friends still attending but hey It could be worse. I could have to face him everyday. Im not gonna lie Ive been praying everything was a lie and that he's coming back to me. Groveling of course. Telling me he didn't mean it and he still loved me. Ive lost weight from barely eating or being able to keep anything down the last couple of weeks. My pants are getting very baggy. Im sure I look like death because thats absolutely what it feels like.