Never Yours

Chapter 8

My eyes are starting to get heavy. yes, nothing hurts when your asleep. Just when Im about to sink into my dark oblivion I hear pounding on the front door. Putting a pillow over my head to drown out the sound. whoever it is can go away or come back when mom gets home.  "Open up biiatch, I know your in there!" groaning all the way I swing open the door more than a little irritated and see Lauren aka "Lo" standing there. In her arms is a bottle of Absolute Vodka and a cranberry juice. Man I love this chick. She Pushes her way past me but not before stopping to look me up and down scrunching her nose at me "You look like hell!" Rolling my eyes so she can physically see my Irritation "Well come on in". I mean she's already here and she did come baring gifts. "I've come to help you. You need to Get your ass back to school so we can finish and get the fuck out of here. . Theres A whole world out there for us and we're gonna grab it by the balls. You and me. But first Im gonna get you drunk. We can spend only one more night crying over Jarhead. I know we arent classified as besties yet and I think you think that Numbnuts broke you but your wrong. Looking down in my lap so I dont see her look at me with pity. because thats what Jaren said I was right, pathetic? I whisper with tears starting to slide down my face "I dont know if I can be fixed Lo" "Look at me spence, we're gonna fix you all right? And then were gonna make Jaren Marrioti wish he never fucked with us or you, tomato tamoto, whatever. Ive got a pizza on the way. We are gonna smash and from the looks of your skinny ass Im probably gonna have to get another. Girl you need to eat. How much weight did you lose?" I answer embarassed "I don't know mabey 15 pounds" "Holy Fucking shit Spence you were already a rail." Rolling my eyes at her over exageration I bite out "I was a size 6 and Im 5'6 I was not a rail!" She just ignores my statement and continues on "Now enough we got some Penis bashing to do" After about an hour of drinking I was drunk, slurring my words, and crying over Jaren again . I told Lauren everything, about our relationship, our falling out and even about my mom and Jarens dad, Eddie Baluzi, the mafia and fbi. For some reason I just knew I could trust her. We continued to drink through the night and talking . We balled our eyes out. We rolled on backs laughing when I told her about how me and Jaren had fought rolling on the ground. Mom had came in around 10, checked on me and seen lauren there and smiled. She then shut the door and left us to ourselves. BY the time midnight rolled around we had finished a whole fifth of Vodka and were toast. Both of us Laying on my bed with one foot on the ground to stop the spinning until we passed out.

The most ungodly noise rocked my world. well my head, at 6 am. I prayed my head wasnt going to explode  "HOLY FUCK! What is that noise? Oh God please shut it off" groaning Lo grabs her phone off the bed side table trying to shut the damned thing off with her eyes shut. "Its my alarm for school." Jerking the phone out of her hand I get up and throw it in the hall and climb back on the bed. I try to ease some of the pain in my head. Oh why did we drink the whole bottle? I've never been drunk before. Me and Jaren went to parties. He didnt drink a whole lot. He always said that he had to stay sober to watch over me and the guys. His two best friends Kane and Remy were lushes. He'd cut me off after my third and start pumping me with water.Now I know why . This has to be the worst feeling ever. My muscles hurt and theres a hammer relentlessly pounding on my skull. I feel like I could hurl at any moment. Looking over at Lo who looks about as well as I is trying to get up. Not quite gracefully she just rolls out and onto the floor with a graon and a muttered "Fuck" not able to contain my laughter I bust a gut and wince from the sharp pain in my head. When it eases I ask her  "What day is it? Groaning she repeats "Wednesday" Ive been in the house feeling sorry for myself for over two weeks. no more. So I announce mabey to myself more than to lauren "Im going to school" I mean why not I have 4 months till graduation and I can spend my senior year doing my own thing. Besides Jaren wouldnt be there he already graduated. After showering I pull on my leggings and my tight fitting Victoria Secret Pink Authletic zip up with the words Pink written in black sequence in the front bringing attention to my tatas and no under shirt . It shows a fair amount of cleavage and if I raise my arms you will get a peak of my flat stomach. My leggings snugly compliment my backside which Jaren would only let me wear while I was with with him. I pull on my black sequinced uggs since all my other pairs are at Jarens along with half my wardrobe. I pull my hair in a messy bun , my head is still pounding like crazy to do anything more. I add some concealer and foundation to cover the dark circles under my eyes. Its a total dress down from how I went before but I'm too hungover to do anything else. As I"m brushing my teeth trying not to blow chunks, Lo comes in my on suite bathroom wearing gray leggings and a Teal Victoria secret 3/4 sleeve long tee with off white uggs. And her hair in a long pony down her back. This is scary. I guess two great minds think a like. Shes gorgeous I dont understand why no one has snagged her up by now. I think theres a story behind that and I hope she tells me one day and then mabey I can help her in return. Shes never had a serious relationship that Ive ever known of and she only dates a guy for a few weeks . She has long red hair, perfect creamy skin and full natural red lips. Her bodys thick but tight and curvier than mine. She stands in the doorway of the en suite holding out a shot of some sort "Here shot this" And I look at her like shes done lost her mind " No way, Are you crazy?, Im pretty sure I'm still drunk from last night and my head feels like it could explode at any minute and you want me to drink more? no thank you" She then proceeds "Spence, You gotta bite the dog the bit ya and besides your gonna need it today. After everything thats happened and Jarhead does still have friends in our senior class. Just shot it." Not even thinking about it I shot it choking and sputtering as it burns my throat and all the way down to my stomach "holy shit what the hell is that?" Smiling a develish smile "tequila" and then she winks and walks away. Holy Shit. Before I left the house I had almost lost my nerve and went back to bed. So I did what any heart broken girl would do and took 3 more shots of liquid courage. I put on my Gucci shades and got in the car.