Never Yours

Chapter 3

6 Months Ago

Strong arms circle around my waist pulling me to his hard body. My back to his front. I smelled his expensive cologne mixed with his musky scent as soon as he came in the room, and it's had the butterflies in my stomach on overdrive. "mmm, I missed you" " How was Manhatton?" I say. He's Nuzzling and placing small kisses all over my kneck , ears, and hair ."hmmmm, baby " was his reply. Before I realize it a moan escapes me. Turning so I'm facing him, I stare deep in his dark brown eyes, it sends a jolt of sensation below my waist, Jaren is staring back at me with heat and something else I couldnt quite catch, before he masked it. That's the difference between me and Jaren, I'm an open book as to how I feel, Jaren can mask his and shut you out with out much effort. He then starts a different pattern of kisses and bites down my neck back up to my jaw line, swiping his tongue over my lips. Oh god, this is how it starts everytime. I'm always so weak around him. He's barely started touching me and my knees are ready to buckle. My hearts beating out of my chest. He knows the effect he has on me. I've never hidden what I feel for him. Oh god there's that grin, the sexiest, with those perfect white teeth. My Jaren is a greek god. Gorgeous short but messy black hair and  deep pools of brown eyes. He's real Italian so his complexian is all natural not like the fake wanna be's you see on Jersey Shore. Hes 6'3 and muscular build and has the chest and abs of a fitness model. He's sleeved with tribal tattoos. The shoulder portion of the tattoo says "No Regrets" in beautiful bold script. The tribal runs down his bicep into a large brightly colored "Familia Family tree". On his forearm is a Baretta 950 with more tribal that travels down and around. His wrist has "Marriotti" on it. On his other fore arm is a Face portrait of me with my hair flowing down to his wrist. I had a nineteen forties style diamond encrusted head band that rested on my forehead. The words "La Mia Bella Principessa" were written above it in the same script as "Marriotti". The only color on the tattoo is the color in my eyes. The tattoo artist matched the color almost perfectly. Jaren had gotten that tattoo the day after I gave him my virginity.  I was self concious because he hadnt been a virgin. Not even close. He had told me it was the most amazing sexual experience of his life but I still was sceptical . Jaren has had quite the reputation. He'd been hooking up with girls and grown women since he was 13. He thought that he'd hidden it from me but I knew. At that time we were just friends. I've always wanted more. I've loved him since I was 10 years old. He can be cold, dark and very possessive and thats probably what I love most about him.

I met Jaren 6 years ago at Dan Sterlings birthday party. I didnt want to come to Dans party but his mom was one of mom's most prestigious clients and we were new here so she made me go. When I stayed glued to her side she finally pushed me away making me socialize" "Go on spence go make some friends" "I miss my old friends" "you need to give it a chance" "No, I just want to go back to my old life with grams" Knowing it was pointless arguing I decided to walk away. It was also a pool party and I had yet to learn how to swim. I decided I should atleast try to fit in, so I sat on the side of the pool. Across from me in the pool was the same group of boys Dan hung out in school. And so was the boy I'd seen at the playground named Jaren, nobody messed with Jaren. To my horror He was staring right at me with his face distorted in anger. What did I ever do to him? Thats when it happened. Dan pushed me in the pool. Im kicking my feet and trying to surface, scared out of my mind and taking water in my lungs. I feel arms wrap around my waist bringing me to the surface and the edge of the pool. I was choking on the water I'd swallowed and Jaren Mariotti had his hands on my face attempting to push my hair out of my eyes with a panicked look on his face. When he registers that I'm ok he grabs Dan by the hair in a rage and holds him under the water for what feels like forever. When one of the boys from the group pipes in "Jaren I think your gonna kill him man" He lets Dan go but not before he whispers something to him that I couldn't hear.  And then he just up and gets out of the pool leaving me reeling from what just happened. The next day at the playgound he was waiting for me "Stay next to me princess" and we've been like that ever since. He also made sure to teach me how to swim that summer. We spent almost every waking moment together. Until I turned 13 and everything changed. Well right after he had kissed me. Jaren was my first kiss, first love, and first everything. We were hanging out at his house watching movies when it had happened. He had let me pick the movie so I made him watch "The Notebook" with me. During the movie I felt his eyes roaming over me and it gave me goosebumps. As I looked over at him he had lowered his gaze lingering on my mouth. That's when it happened he took my mouth starting out slow and passionate. But the heat like always was burning and consuming us and the next thing I know we were making out and his dad is walking in on us. He walked right out of course not uttering a word. Jaren completely freaked out and apologized saying "We had to stop hanging out and that I was only 13 and he was 15. I spazzed out and almost had a anxiety attack begging him not to leave me. He didn't of course but we didnt hang out alone after that. 2 days after I turned 16 Richie sterling asked me out on a date. My first real date. He was a hottie. He was also 18. I had been depressed hearing about all the partying and women Jaren had been involved in. Richie was Dans older brother but I wasnt holdng that against him. He was gorgeous and a real charmer. I wasn't that interested but I was tired of sitting home alone while Jaren was out partying it up. I didnt have many girlfiends to hang out with because they 6 Months Ago