Bored Ramblings II: Object of Importance

My Apologies

Before I get into the point of this entry, RWBY VOLUME 4 HYPE!! I'm probably gonna write mini-reviews going over my thoughts on each episode when Vol. 4 drops on October 22nd.

WITH THAT OUT OF THE WAY:

I'm sorry that I keep going offline and not posting anything, it's just that school has taken over once more and I've been going through a lot lately that I really didn't have the drive to update anything. Most notably concerning a much more recent event that I just need to get out to y'all here.

Now, if you've been following me for a while, than you know that I have a girlfriend that I've been dating for damn near 5 years at this point...or rather, HAD a girlfriend. In other words, Suzie (yes, that's her name) left me.

Now the reason why she broke up with me isn't clear to me, but I do have an idea about what might've been the straw that broke the camel's back: For the past 8 or so months, Suzie began to not respond to ANYTHING I say to her outside of school. Not texts, calls, nothing. Whenever I asked her about this, she always responded the exact same way each and every single time: "I'm busy", EVEN DURING THE SUMMER. Now that wouldn't be so bad...had it only go for about a month or two, but this little game went on for EIGHT MONTHS, which (unsurprisingly) aroused my sense of curiosity and (within the last 3 months) my bullshit detector.

After taking another look at her schedule for this school year, I noticed that most of her classes were marked with "MTI", which (at least around here) is a form of special needs classes...I'm pretty sure you can get the reason why my bullshit detector went into overdrive.

But, wanting to make absolute sure I have my facts straight before confronting her about this, I showed her schedule to several of my IRL friends (who I will not name here), and they confirmed my suspicions about the whole situation. Afterwards, I sent her a text questioning whether or not she was actually busy or just trying to avoid me, to no response. This is where the "What the honest fuck" really sets in.

The next day, I was walking to lunch when I bumped into Suzie just as I was leaving class, and it was at that point she (rather smugly , bluntly and nonchalantly) told me in her own words: "Yeah we're through" and walked off. I simply muttered "way to be blunt", and before I continued walking, one of our mutual friends, Nataly, said that I changed and what I did was not cool before following Suzie. I then continued walking when ANOTHER one of our mutual friends told me that he saw text and that it was "not cool" as he shook his head as I continued walking. It was then my mind was roaring with questions such as "Why didn't Suzie just respond last night?", "Why was she so nonchalant about the whole thing?", and most importantly, "What did I do to piss our mutual friends off, and if it was the text, then HOW THE FUCK AM I IN THE WRONG FOR TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE TRUTH?!"

Nevertheless, the whole debacle pushed me further into my depression (and yes, I have clinical depression) and I was pissed at first because Suzie essentially couldn't handle being exposed and turned our mutual friends against me, but then it hit me that there's a good chance that I'm not gonna find another girl like her again, or at least not in person, which lead me to fall further into depression and write this entry.

The TL;DR version: My ex-girlfriend Suzie left me and turned our mutual friends against me after I found out that she was purposefully avoiding me outside of school.

So that's that, I'm single, extremely scared to mingle, and I refuse to resort to online dating (like Tinder, Match.com, etc.).

Hopefully I can find someone that actually gives a damn about me and update more often (again, RWBY Vol. 4 hype train).

With all of that out of the way:

I'll see y'all later.

-Orion