Love Me Til The End (complete)

8

I was lying down with Jackson under the covers kissing my stomach. Kissing all over my body but it felt really good. Very soft and a loving kiss. Unlike Jackson's rough kisses. More like Stiles'. I lift up the covers and I see Stiles placing gentle kisses on my stomach.

I sit up in my bed gasping. Jackson sits up next to me. It's been a month since our second date and since then we've slept together about 3 times and went out about 7 more times. He spent the night last night even though I really didn't want him to.

"What's wrong?" he asks rubbing my shoulder. "Bad dream. It's nothing. We should go back to sleep."I say. We lie back down and I fall asleep shortly after.

Jackson left right after I woke up. He got a new job and he had to go. I sit up and run my fingers through my hair. I get out of bed and walk to the kitchen.

There was no coffee. I swear in my head and I quickly get dressed in sweats and puts my hair up in a messy bun. I drive to the closest coffee shop near my house and order my drink.

As I wait for my drink, I hear someone call my name.
"Lydia?" the person says. I look up and see Stiles.
"Hey." he says with a small wave. I wave back.
"Hi.How have you been?"I ask, secretly hoping he was doing terrible. He shrugs.
"I'm fine. You?" he asks.

"I'm okay."I say smiling. He smiles a little and looks down at his feet. "I miss you."he says quietly but loud enough for me to hear. He moves his feet around a little bit. I sigh and I touch his shoulder. He looks up at me.

"I miss you too." I say making him smile. "But,I can't be with you."His fades and he parts his lips a little bit. "Why not? Was I really that bad of a boyfriend?" he asks. I shake my head.

"It's not that. Stiles you were a great boyfriend. But I have a boyfriend. That loves me." I tell him. He sniffs and looks at a wall. His eyes are filled with tears.

"Do you love him?" he asks. I don't respond. "What?" I ask. He sniffs and looks me in the eyes. "Do you love him? You said he loved you. Do you love him?" Stiles asks. I look away from him and say yes. He scoffs. "Lydia. Look me in the eyes and tell me you love him and you don't feel anything for me." he says. I look him in the eyes and shake my head.

"Fine. I don't love him. And you know I still do have feelings for you." I say and Stiles bites the inside of his cheek. "Then why are you still with him? Why are you still with someone you don't love?" Stiles asks.

"Because even though I don't love him, I know there is something he won't ever do."I say. I felt a tear so I wiped it away quickly. "Hurt me."

I hear my name get called and I grab my coffee.
"Goodbye,Stiles." I walk out the door and get in my car. I drive home but I don't get out of the car. I lean my head against the wheel and I cry.

I quickly pulled out my phone. I text Jackson really fast.

I don't think I can make it tonight.Maybe next week.