Crystal Visions.

Sad but not blue...

Ella's POV: 

No I'm not being an immature little fifteen year old who's not speaking to their parents so that I can avoid a topic that they completely wouldn't understand. I just want to be left alone! Period! After what went down a couple of nights ago, I knew that as soon as I spat out Aiden's name that's enough. I can't tell them anymore, in there eyes it's seen as sexual molestation. And it was...but what made me feel guilty was that, I didn't mind him being around me,so I feel like it's my fault. He, I don't know, he's how I imagine Edgar Allan Poe a tortured soul who has found solace in a young spirit. '' This maiden she lived with no other thought than to love and be loved, by me.'' is definitely what I was thinking a year ago, his actions were dark including his words, making fun of my tall lanky frame, but he's the only guy who's given me the light of day. I told my mom that there was this boy at school who use to always ask me to join his heavy metal band, because I had 'the look'. What the hell is 'the look' well I asked Aaron and he said that 'the look' in a heavy metal band is supposedly long hair for guys. So that dude basically thought that I was a dude! Then mom said '' oh he probably just thinks your cute.'' so I'm guessing the whole entire grade thought that I was cute, they'd shower me with mocks and taunts and girls would chuck chicken breast at me and say '' Grow a pair.'' And I'd yell back '' Check my skirt and you'll see that I have!'' That'd shut them up. So yeah that was my experience with boys. 

I've just been avoiding everyone in the past couple of days, no one can lighten me up, not even my brothers and sisters and not even a choc fudge brownie sundae can make me change my mind...Okay so maybe I do sound like an immature little teenager who is finding pleasure in a newfound way of rebellion. My words being distant, and my voice being silent towards my parents, does sort of pleasure me. I don't know why, I know I shouldn't be acting this way towards them. Especially to my mom, I mean she went through crap just to have me! And not to mention my dad had to sit on the sidelines waiting for me. But the whole thing is just complicated and confusing, and...in a strange sort of Oscar Wilde-esque way, beautiful... 

Troy: 

Breakfast was sooooo uncomfortable. No one spoke at all, not Aunt Lori, not Karen, not Mary, not even mom or dad or the girls would say anything. I usually have little Ella-belle beside me, telling jokes, me stealing bites of her food, her yanking my long hair and me stealing her flower crowns from her luggage and stretching them out due to the size of my head that's bigger than hers. It wasn't just that but none of us have seen Ella all day, mom has but she said that Ella refuses to come out from her vegetation for a bite to eat. Ella missing a meal, is like Spongebob without Patrick. I'm worried for Ella, sure mom and dad told us what happened with Aiden. I am PISSED! that guy has no idea what's coming to him when we get back home, I never liked him, so i don't know how two people with the same Genetic coding as me can take such a liking to him. Especially my baby sister, I worry for her all the time, my students are all the same age as her, and it's safe to say that I care about them the same way I care about Ella. 

Look I knew that Ella has (well had) some sort of emotional attatchment towards Aiden, by that I mean I knew she'd get all rosy-cheeked, bright eyed, and flitter around like a school girl around him. But I never knew about those other things. We should never have left Ella alone with him. But we can't go back and change everything, we're just going to have to pick up the pieces, stitch everything back together and learn from it. Is it partly mom and dads fault? No! But last year was so awkward for Ella...She had all these hormones boiling inside of her, I had to give her the sex talk, even though she's seen videos in her classes at her old school. Yeah I know, awkward right! She got her period for the first time, had a whole heap of questions and mom and dad were overseas touring with the mac. The girls were with mom and dad because they were on college holidays, Aaron was in Australia partying down under and that left Seth and myself with Ella. Poor girl I remember everything...