I Am Me (BTS's Taehyung) [Complete]

I Am Me

| Chapter 18 | Don't Ever Leave Me |

Taehyung's Point of View

I ran and ran as far as my legs could take me. My worries of running into strangers didn't come up. I bump into angry people who cursed me off for not watching where I was going. I apologized and went on my way again. Even crossing the street without looking both ways, I got people yelling at me. I couldn't stop here if it meant seeing Hana, and especially now since she is in the hospital at the moment. I just couldn't stand the thought of her leaving me.

Why am I being like this? I suddenly come to a stop and look up before me. The hospital stood right in front of me with the windows lit and the atmosphere very gloomy. My insides start turning and I'm quickly reminded of Hana. I can't help but to think that she's very badly injured, but I couldn't bring myself to move at all.

I only known her for a while... I looked to my sides to see people walking by, a few couples here and there. My eyes fixated on the happy aura of the people walking by, and the aura of those with loneliness and fear. I look back at the hospital, my cheeks blaring up from the cool air and my nervousness. I finally get the courage to enter the scary place and walk to the receptionist who smiled thoughtfully to me.

Why am I here...? I smile back at the lady and ask her for Hana. She nicely response to me and tells me where she was located, and warned me that visiting hours will be over soon. I thanked her and ran off to find her. I looked from door to door looking for that number room of hers but I was so desperate to find her that I missed the door. How my heart was pounding so hard and I couldn't even think straight.

I did find the room eventually, my hand trembling when I gently touched the knob and turned it. I walked in to find Hana laying back, her eyes trailed on the ceiling. I smiled softly to her, her eyes finally moving on to me when she sees me. Her eyes begin to tear up and she quickly runs to me, getting rid of the tubes attached her and anything that shouldn't belong. She attacked me, hugging me tight and the only thing I can do is fall in tears and hug back. Her warmth surrounding me, her touch soothing me, I felt more at ease more than I have for a long time.

Do I really love her? Or am I obsessed with her? Or afraid? I snuggled closer to her neck, hearing her giggle, filling my ear with her voice. I don't know why but I just love this. I longed for this for a long time and now I can finally feel it. This feeling...

I let go of her, seeing her still running tears on her face, I wipe them away as she smiles softly to me. "I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry about," I respond back, her smile greatly increasing. Her smile really did bring joy to me and those questions still wandered in my head as I stood there watch her as she led me to her hospital bed. She sat me next to her, her hand holding mine as she placed our hands on her lap.

Third point of view

"I know I left you, but I honestly couldn't stay, and I'm-"

"Before you say anything," Taehyung suddenly blurted out, catching Hana off guard. She looked confused to the guy in front of her, waiting for him to talk to her.

"I want to say I'm sorry." This was a series of events. This didn't make sense to Hana. "I wanted to... be more to you. I'm sorry for being a jerk when we first met. I'm sorry for being so cold towards you. I'm sorry for sending that message when actuality... I think..."

"Don't say it if you can't yet Tae." Her voice came out softly, her eyes dropping to their intertwined hands. She wanted to cry because she was hoping for more from Taehyung, but she's being selfish with him. She loves him and he probably knows it, yet, she knows that he recently is trying to find his feelings. She knows yet she hopes. Hana wants Taehyung to love her back just the way she does.

Her gaze went to his but his eyes were trained onto the floor. He was frowning, his other hand was clenched into a fist and his thoughts were running. He kept fighting with himself saying he came here for a reason, and thoughts of that nature. He wanted to say something to her so she won't worry but he couldn't even say anything. He was finally able to look up at her and meet her eyes but he saw sadness in them.

"I love you Taehyung, even if you can't say it to me," Hana softly spoke, leaning her head onto his shoulder. Taehyung didn't pull away. He felt at ease but either way, he couldn't exactly accept when his own mind is going all over the place. What exactly was he suppose to say to this?

It was a nice atmosphere until he realized why he was here.

"That reminds me, what happen to you?" Taehyung asked, Hana pulling away from his shoulder and looked up at him with a nervous expression.

"I was trying to step onto the sidewalk when I slipped but it wasn't serious," She explained. "It turns out I hit my head on the concrete and fell unconscious. A couple ended up finding me and took me to the hospital. I thanked them when I woke up and they smiled back. They left about 30 minutes ago." Taehyung let out a sign of relief, sending a small smile to his face.

"I'm happy that you are okay," He said to her. "Did the doctor say when you'll be discharged?" He added.

"I'm already set to go, I was just waiting for you." Wait.. what?

"Wait... so you're telling me..?" Hana nods to the confused Taehyung in front of her.

"Jason and Max were panicking at first when they found me here but as soon as I explained the situation, they were fine. They just wanted you to know."

"What about your grandma?"

"I told her not to go but she wanted to meet your parents." She laughed nervously, her cheeks blushing from embarrassment. Taehyung couldn't contain a chuckle. She really was a beauty.

Do you love her or not?

Taehyung looked at Hana and continued smiling at her, until he placed his hand on her cheek and grazed it, his own smile dropping and his eyes fixated on her eyes.

I have to... if I didn't... I wouldn't be here in the first place.