Unsteady

Why?

Why do you like me?
Becacue from my point of view I'm not much of anything. In fact I'm too average for anyone to even look at me so why do you like me?

I'm super weird. And not in a good way. I have an unhealthy addiction to chapstick, I chew or lick everything. I have a nasty habit of biting my nails until they bleed. I say things that make everything  awkward(And not the cute awkward, the very real awkward that creates a crushing silence and makes people leave uncomfortably). I get jealous way too easily too. And I get sad from the littlest of things.

This weirdness deters people. Except you, you've seen it all and you've stayed.

Why?

Everything else has nothing that's with staying for.

I'm not gorgeous like everyone around me is. I don't have nearly the charm either. My musicianship is ,at best sub par, and on most days absolutely awful. I'm not a cute little short girl, but I'm not even remotely tall either. I'm not thin. I don't have gorgeous blue or green eyes, or any color really, they're literally gray. I'm bad at dancing, and I don't dare do anything other than a carefully choreographed dance in front of people. Especially because I didn't choreograph it. My hair is just a weird in between color, not a pretty blonde or a chocolate brown, not strawberry red. Nothing that'd catch someone's eye. Let alone their attention.

But why did it catch yours?

I don't even have any cute little quirks or hobbies. I don't chew on my lip while I read, I don't drum my fingers on a table when I'm nervous, I don't mash my lips together when I'm thinking. There's nothing that even if someone decided to pay attention to me that they'd find cute and unique about me.

I'm not good at reading people, I'm not good at video games, I'm not funny, I'm not good at cooking, I'm not good with kids.

Why do you still stick around?

I used to be unique, but I'm not.
I used to laugh a lot, but people made fun of my laugh and told be I sound like dying animals. I can't laugh anymore. People tell my my smile is crooked and my eyes are squinty so I can't smile normally anymore. People tell me my toes are weird so I can't wear sandals anymore. People tell me my skin is too white that I'm a ghost, I can't wear shorts anymore. People tell me my face is a strange, so I shouldn't go out with makeup. But people tell me I'm not good at makeup, so I can't wear makeup very much.

Nothing about me is something i would be drawn to. Noting about me is something that anyone else is drawn to.

So why...
Why are you?