I love you. And when you're sad I will always rush over with cookies or food and prepared for snuggles abs a night in with your and near watch movies or TV with you and try to make you feel better.
Always.
But you never really seem to do that for me.
I know I'm sad a lot, and I know its normally something stupid that I've blown out of proportion. But I don't think you've ever physically been there.
I know you love me but... it makes me feel as if I'm not important.
You're going to stay home and watch movies or play video games while I'm alone in a dark bedroom already feeling like everyone only tolerates me. You're the only person I want to see, talk to to, ans be with in those moments. A hug from you would make everything instantly better.
But you never come.
You're never here.
And all you say is "oh I'm sorry, don't be sad" and you tell me I'm only sad over something little I've blown out of proportion. You don't think I know that? I already feel pathetic for being sad over whatever small thing set me off that day, and you'remaking it worse because you just confirmed what the voices in my thoughts were telling me. That it's stupid and no one cares.
Could you like, try and sympathize with me? Actually try to make me feel better? Because right now you're becoming part of the reason I'm sad all the time. You're making it too easy for those negative thoughts to appear and say "see? Even he doesn't care, he told you to get over it"
I don't want you to be a reason to cry at night.
But if you continue to let yourself become that without doing anything about it, I might have to... do something about it.
All I want is you. You don't need to bring anything, you don't need to say anything.
Just. Be there.
Please?
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Unsteady
No FicciónThis is just a place where I can tell someone how I feel when I'm sad, without directly bothering someone I know. "If you love me don't let go. Hold on to me, cause I'm a little unsteady." There's a reason I love that song.
