Miracle // Book 2 // Brendon Urie

Chapter 17: Our Last Goodbye

12:00 seems like the right time to talk to him, right? Thankfully, he's still here and I have no clue if he's going anywhere or not, so I guess this the time to do it. I took a deep breath and walked downstairs. Brendon was sitting at island, drinking a beer. You got this, you can do it, I thought to myself. Once I built up my courage, I walked over and poked his shoulder.

He turned around and looked at me, "Hey."

"Hey, do you have a moment?"

"Sure, I'll be heading out soon though."

"With Sarah again?"

"Yeah," he said, looking down. I took a seat next to him and took some more deep breaths.

"What's up?"

"Huh, what do you mean?"

"What-What's going on with you lately?"

"I still don't understand what you mean," he replied, taking a sip of his beer and not looking at me at all.

"Why won't you look at me?" He didn't respond. "Brendon, babe, is there something I should know?" Brendon frowned when I said "babe."

Finally, he looked at me, "No, why would there be?"

"I don't know, maybe because you hang out with Sarah like almost every single day and everyday morning and night you're in the studio like avoiding me or something."

"I'm not avoiding you."

"Then, how come I never see you anymore. We don't even talk anymore either!"

"Yes, we do."

"No, Brendon, we don't. I've been so lonely that I had to invite Breezy over to hang out cause my boyfriend doesn't anymore." Still silence and more sipping of the beer. "Do you even care?"

"Of course, I do."

"Oh, really? It doesn't seem like it. You're not even looking at me or anything!"

"Listen, Addilyn, I have to go get ready."

I quickly grabbed his hand, "Please, don't. I just wanna talk to you, Brendon. Please."

~Brendon's POV~

As I was getting up, Addilyn grabbed my hand and said,"Please, don't. I just wanna talk to you, Brendon. Please." I turned around and looked at her. Tears were falling down her face. I sat back down on the stool. "Thank you. Why are you not talking to me and just hanging out in the studio and with Sarah all the time?"

"I don't."

"Yes, you do," she yelled, then putting her head in her hands crying more.

"Please, stop crying."

"No, I will not! I love you so much, but it's like you forgot you actually had a girlfriend."

"I never forgot-"

"We don't have our morning coffee together, or snuggle or kiss or nothing anymore! Do you not love me anymore or something? You like Sarah don't you?!"

"I don't like Sarah," I said, raising my voice.

Addy stood up, "I don't believe that for a second. You're always hanging out with her! And what about what happened at Thanksgiving? Don't think I didn't forget about that."

"You need to stop being so jealous!"

"I'm your girlfriend! It's what us girlfriends do and you get jealous too!" She took some shaky deep breaths and sat back down. "Brendon, please answer this honestly. Do you like Sarah?"

"No, for the last time."

"Be honest, Brendon." I was silent and Addilyn looked at me, biting her lip.

"I-I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know? That's a yes, isn't it?!"

"I don't know."

Addilyn started crying more, "I can't believe this. What about your promise?" She showed me her hand with the promise ring on it. "You can't love two women!"

"Well, then if you don't like that then leave!" What was I saying right now?

Addy's eyes widened, "What?"

"Leave if you don't like that then! Leave if you don't like me being in the studio all the time!"

"Are you saying we're over? Even with everything we've been through?!"

I sighed, "Yes." She started to cry harder now.

"Fine! Let me pack my bags and get out of your life!" As she walked upstairs, she continued to talk, "I knew this was going to happen, that's why I never wanted to talk to you about it!" I could still hear her cries from down here.

~Addilyn's POV~

I packed every single thing that I owned. I knew this was going to happen! I knew it!

Finally, everything was in my car and I went back inside to say my final goodbye. "Well, this is my final goodbye to you. I hope you live a happy life. Oh, here's the ring, I don't need it anymore since the promise was broken. Maybe you can give it to Sarah or something. Well, bye Brendon Urie." I closed the door, hopped in the car, and let it all out.

I arrived at my mom's house and knocked at the door. She opened it and once she looked at my face, she pulled me in for a hug, "Oh honey, I'm so sorry."