Falling inside

Chapter 6

Nightshade
It was very stressful now. Meetings almost every hour and I finally got my rank back and I got to work with some old friends from the republic days. It was all great but the work load which isn't as much as I once had but it was harder. I spent most of the days working with Luke on his training, Han on the ship, Leia in the meetings, and Noel on the elements. She, like me, was elemental and because I could control it, I was the only one that could teach it.
    "Focus Luke. Picture the bowl in your mind," I said. It was what Kanan said to Ezra and I was trying to learn from how Anakin trained Snips and how I trained Maria but I couldn't do that for long so I used some of Kanan's techniques.
   "This is harder than you know," he said. I glared at him and rolled my eyes.
   "I know. I'm in charge of half of the force and Holly in charge of the other. Tell me what's hard again," I snapped as I grabbed my paint brush. He was always complaining and he was so lucky at the moment. Sure he lost his aunt and uncle but his father is still alive and evil. The visions kept coming back and my head hurt every now and then but that could be because Anakin decided to flip the balance of the force by killing his old master, or that's what I hope it is and it's not Holly being sick or hurt because I would get signs and I'm hoping that these aren't the signs.
"Sorry," he mumbled and I rolled my eyes.
"You know what, fuck it I'm not teaching and I never could," I said. He smiled and I used the force to throw a shoe at him. He glared at me and I laughed like a sycophant.
"You were once a teacher?" He asked. I slowly nodded sat down. I hated to bring up what happened to Maria but it was testified and proven that it wasn't my fault but I couldn't help but think that it was. I could've helped her but I froze and hesitated which was something that I never should've done but I had a choice to make.
"Yes and I don't want to bring it up anymore," I snapped. I hated to bring her up and I wish I never said what I did say. Anakin told me that it was a very Jedi move but I wasn't a Jedi, I was a Dark and I had to hold a balance and what I did definitely fixed the balance and now I wish I didn't.
  My eyes were turning yellow again but this time I didn't care and why should I. It didn't hurt anyone for my eyes and to let out my anger was the best thing for me at the moment. I heard a scream and I ran outside to see everything spin and then go black.
Vision
   A red blade chased Holly and Ezra around a ship and they stopped running and fought the man. Holly and Ezra fought strongly and then Ezra went down while Holly held her head up and kept going. Her feat weren't stable anymore and she was weak. She slipped and fell as the red blade went through her heart. Ezra got up and walked over and struck the red blade down and kneeled down and closed Holly's eyes.
         End of vision
    "Be careful with how you lift her!" Luke yelled as I felt the ground fall beneath me. I slowly opened my eyes and felt as if I was stabbed in the heart. Holly was dead and it was all my fault. When I got angry the dark side of the force was stronger than the light and because Holly was main on the light side and I let that side become weak and now she's dead because of me. She got killed because of me and even though Ezra killed the person that killed her I want the killer to pay. The killer had a red face and I knew who it was now and I know he's not dead. Let's see how many times we think we killed Maul, the ones I know about are about 12 or 13, yeah he's not dead but he will be.
Dun dun dun.... Well I did it I killed off a character that was important to me. I am so evil that it's not funny also the picture at the top is what the current Sabine looks like for my book. I'm doing a count down starting with her and ending with Nightshade who is now going through some shit. See ya soon readers and happy Halloween