Falling inside

Chapter 7

So because the third book is going to be really long I'm just going to make this like ten or eleven chapters. I hope that's fine with everyone and if you don't mind I'm doing some time skips between this chapter and the next one. The next chapter takes place in the 5th SW movie and yeah also this is about when Luke blew up the Death Star but I'm changing things up if you don't mind and yes I've seen all the movies and happy Halloween.
Nightshade
I was changing my name soon. A new start and a new me would be wonderful after the best part of me died. She wasn't in pain anymore, that's what Leia and Luke tried to tell me but I didn't care. She was like my sister and now that she's gone I have nothing in me.
"So you're sure that you want to be called the Grim Reaper?" Han asked. I nodded slowly. It stood for the bringer of death and because of what I'm planning on doing to the Sidious. I hated him for what happen and even though he didn't kill Holly he trained the person that did.
"It stands for the bringer of death. That's what I'm going to do to the empire. They killed the best part of me and now I'm going to get revenge," I said as I threw another rock into the pond. He laughed and walked over to me.
"Look I know what it's like to loose the most important thing to you. My sister died a few years ago and I wasn't there either but I got myself over it and so will you. It will take time and a distraction but you will get over it. You're strong enough and powerful enough," he said. Paint was everywhere from me painting the x-wings but I didn't care at the moment because I was going in a mission soon and I was ready to explode the Death Star. I was going to make them pay no matter the cost.
"Thanks Han but I don't think that will happen for me. Me and Holly were the last Grays and Darks and because we were the last ones to take care of the force as in if one of us died I have to keep the force in balance. If I let it slip out of control again then the entire galaxy could die," I said. It caused me to loose my sanity and control of my actions and when I had to go into the perfect mixture it was hard for me not to fall into a vision. Now that I was in control every time I tried to sleep it caused me to go into a vision which actually caused pain. It was even deadly for me to fall into sleep which sucked because I could get so tired at times and I couldn't stop myself from dozing off. I had to keep myself busy all the time which was hard because music worked when I had it but I don't have time for it anymore due to a war. The song of the rebellion died but lived and I was scared that when I lost Holly I lost my music.
"Yo it's time to go!" Luke yelled as he ran over to us. I nodded and ran over to my ship and jumped in.
"Leia get everyone ready to leave. We might have to find a new base. Hoth is safe at the moment," I said as she walked over.
"Alright. See you when you get back and keep Luke alive we need him," she said as she gave me a hug. I nodded and closed the top and flew off with the others
Time skip
As Leia placed the meddles around me, Han, and Luke I looked over at the twins and smiled for the first time in a while. Holly would've been so proud and so would everyone else and I missed them so much. Noel walked over and whispered in my ear that I had a transmission come in from the Rebels and I walked out the party as fast as I could. I needed to speak to them so badly and it wasn't funny.
"R2 play it," I said as I ran in. Hera popped up with Kanan and once they saw that I was alright I could tell that thy wanted to cry of happiness.
    "Hey guys. How is everyone back there?" I asked. Hera smiled because she knew that I already found out about Holly.
   "Ezra will tell you," she said as Ezra walked up. His hair was shorter and it looked good and he looked more like a Jedi.
   "I'm so sorry Lin. This shouldn't have happened and I tried to save her. I tried to save them both but I couldn't. I wasn't strong enough but I soon will be," he said. I looked at him in alarm and I wanted to scream. Those were the same words Anakin used many times before he went dark.
    "Ezra it's fine. You don't need to be strong enough and I forgive you. It wasn't your fault and I would never blame you for anything," I said. I noticed he got a new lightsaber and saw that he had a green saber.
    "A green saber. I'm very proud of you Ezra. Those are almost as rare as the ones I have. Good job on being so powerful in the force and Sabine nice hair please keep painting. Loosing Ashoka and Holly was hard but don't give that part of yourself up. Rex hang in there buddy we'll see you soon. Kanan please keep teaching Ezra. He needs it. Hera keep flying and Zeb keep fighting. You are all strong and I know you'll all get over this like I will. Good luck rebels and may we meet again," I said as I let them talk to Noel. Amber and Tilah were off doing in a mission so I left Noel to give it to them. Tomorrow we left for Hoth and we were all packing and I had nothing to pack for anything other than the things on my person.