Falling inside

Chapter 15

I have locked myself in mine and Holly's room until I finished this stupid song that I had to write because Hera begged me to do this and I can't do think of anything to write down let alone do I think that I could get on that stage.

"Hows it coming?" Ezra asked as he leaned against the door. I rolled my eyes and slammed the pen down. I think that I lost my creative flow and I hate it.

" Not good at all. I don't know if I can do this anymore and I hate that I can't think of anything," I said as I threw down the book that I was writing in. He laughed and picked up the new saber crystal that I gained a few days ago. He looked shocked that it was golden but I could care less because I will always use my black saber more than anything that I had.

"Is this a Dark only crystal or can Jedi get it too?" he asked as his eyes light up. I rolled my eyes and mumbled a few words that Obi-Wan would slap me for. Zeb laughed and I threw a shoe at him and Chopper shocked Ezra for me. I laughed and Sabine and Holly walked in to see why but I didn't have to say anything for them to find out about everything.

"These were the times that I missed while I was gone," I said as I struggled to catch my breath. It was the truth because I missed these people and this place and all I wanted to do was stay here in this moment but I can't.

"We missed you too. The day you left was hard on us all because we didn't think that you would ever go back to the Empire but when you did it killed us. So tell us about what happened while you were gone other than what you said in the messages," Sabine said as she sat on my bed. The whole crew was in here now and I guess this is how the young-lings will act when the school opens.

"Well I went t o Holly's old town and I lived there with an old friend for a long time. After that I found Luke and we went to a bar and then joined Han. We had to save Leia's life and then we blew up the first Death Star. We went to Hoth which is cold as hell and then a bunch of shit happened and then Luke went to train with Yoda and then got his hand cut off. Han got frozen and me and Luke had to save Han and Leia after she failed because she let emotions take over and then more shit happened and we blew up the second Death Star and now I'm back here," I said as my ear piece went off.

"Holly your brother wants to speak to you Chopper can you come here for a second," I said as I tried to hide my smile.

"Hey Ani hows things going back there?" I asked as Holly ran over. He laughed and rolled his eyes. I could tell from the background noises that things were not so good back there and now I think more people are back and some are a little confused on why Anakin isn't such a a big deal anymore and that Luke now is and knowing Ani that could cause some problems. I left the room so that they could be alone to talk about brother and sister things and walked towards Kanan's room. Things were like they used to be but it was different since they have been through more loss and that the war is over now so they could all leave and go back home but they didn't which makes me smile at the fact that they are so close now that they wouldn't leave each other.

"How are things going kid?"Kanan asked as I sat down like I used to for when we trained Ezra. I shrugged my shoulders to hid the fact that I had nothing written down yet and that worried me still because back when I never left I could write a song whenever I felt like one was needed but now since it's been so long that I highly doubt that I would be able to do it anymore.

"In extreme cases just go up there and sing whatever comes to your mind or better yet just play that song you and Holly grew up to," he said as he tried to cheer me up but since of everything that I did and that I can't feel happiness it hasn't worked in years.