Dear Scott,
It feels as though we've grown closer but sadly farther apart, since your break up with Alex. In the weeks after it seemed as if you were avoiding my touch. Leaving me alone in your greatest time in need.
You never even told me why y'all fell apart. Was I the cause of the demise of your relationship, did I kill the one thing that truly made you happy. I'm sorry if I did, if my feelings pushed your love away. Then in turn pushing you away from me.
From the outside we look soo stable, we are successful, we've moved out of the frat house and into something that can be called our own, we've grown so much as people but even then it's not enough to mend the rift. I love you more than my heart can bare at times.
But watching you come home from a party or the club and talk so animatedly about the newest guy who's grabbed your attention. It hurts me because I know how your lips feel now. I hold the memories of being in your arms for hours.
Sometimes at night I wrap myself in those memories like a warm blanket, I use them as a shield from the horrors of the world. I just wish that it was you I was telling this to, and not a letter that you'll never read.
Mitch
