Letters To Autumn (2016)

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Dear Autumn,

Originally my plans for today were to write to you about love and life and death and how much I adore humans, but I'm not feeling profound or emotional enough at the moment. But that letter will come at some point, I promise.

Autumn, I think I finally know what I want to do with my life. I think part of the reason I felt so anxious and scared about college was because I wasn't certain on what I wanted to do. Obviously I had some idea of writing, but I was going through a terrible writer's block and was just questioning whether I actually wanted to do it. I would send messages to my best friend crying because I couldn't write anymore and I wasn't good at it and I was so scared of losing that.

I honestly can't pinpoint when the shift happened, but it was definitely in the last month or two. I've just started writing more poems, and I'm just struck by how happy it makes me and how I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

And I'm glad I'm so certain of it now. I think writing to you has helped me, Autumn. Thank you.