Lea
I was looking at Aga sternly, nakatayo siya sa harap ko habang katabi si Ada.
God, its been years since I last saw him and I can't deny the fact that he looks good. He gained some weight though but it fits his posture perfecty.
What are you even thinking Lea?! I snapped my thoughts away as I took a deep breathe, "Ano ngang ginagawa mo dito, Muhlach?" I demanded an answer and this time, in a calm tone. Ayaw ko siyang sigawan lalo't na at nandito si Ada, pasalamat siya.
"Visiting Ada, masama bang bisitahin ang anak ko?" he answered plainly, making me arched an eyebrow.
"How did you even know our address?"
After our separation six years ago, I made sure na wala kaming communication. Ada is prohibited to talk to her Dad, not even thru her social media accounts. I know, selfish pakinggan for her part pero wala, eh. Kinailangan.
I took a glance at Aga and waited for him to answer. He looked at Ada and Ada looked at me. "Ah, eh, Mommy., we saw each other yesterday po. I gave him our address para may ideya naman po si Daddy kung saan niya tayo hahanapin." my daughter explained.
Kaya pala nagabihan siya kagabi. Kaya pala abot tenga ang ngiti niya. Kaya pala..
"Ma, Dad, I think I left my phone upstairs. I'll just go and get it." paalam ni Ada and ran, leaving the both of us behind. What the fuck? As if I know, it's her purpose. Humanda talaga sa 'kin mamaya ang bata na 'yon.
"So.." I looked at Aga nang magsalita siya.
We're really not in good terms, if possible nga, pwede ko siyang palabasin ng bahay ko ngayon din but I can't do that, hindi naman ako palengkera and in respect to my daughter, I'll let her bond with her Dad.
I know that she missed him a lot. Sometimes, tuwing dis oras na ng gabi, I can hear sobs coming from her room. It pains me everytime I catched her in that situation, especially I know that I'm one of the reasons why.
"Aga, why did you came back?" I asked out of the blue and he was taken aback because of that.
"What do you mean?" he replied, throwing another question. I exaggeratedly rolled my eyeballs.
Walang pinagbago, ang slow pa rin nito.
"The first few years of our separation have been a really bad one for Ada." I started, he looked at me, listening to every words I say.
"You know, Daddy's girl 'yon eh. Every night, she would come up to me saying she missed you. She would cry and cry, kahit dalaga na siya, mahirap siyang patahanin, sobra. Minsan nga nakakatulog na 'yon sa pag-iyak niya eh. Years passed by, nasanay na rin siya na wala ka. It took her years to move on and now that she's finally happy with her life, bumalik ka pa. Para ano?" hindi ko namalayan at umiiyak na pala ako.
I just can't help but cry everytime I remember Ada's suffering. Not to mention, my suffering.
Bumuntong hininga siya, "Para ano? Para ayusin ang pamilya natin,
Lei." he stated in a soft voice. Damn you!
"Bullshit Aga! 'Di na maayos ang pamilya natin! Kung inisip mo 'yan bago mo ako nagawang lokohin noon, sana, masaya pa tayo hanggang ngayon!" I yelled and I felt my knees weakend. I can feel my heart throbbing in pain. Napaluhod na ako sa sahig.
"Lea, please, listen to me. Alam kong gago ako, pero sana naman mapatawad mo na ako. Give me a chance to prove myself. I promise, if I screw up this time around, you'll never see me again. Just please.." he said with voice full of sincerity at lumuhod upang magkapantay kami. I was looking at him directly in his eyes and all I can see is sadness within.
Ba't gano'n? Galit ako sa kanya, sobra pero tuwing kaharap ko siya at habang nakikinig sa mga sinasabi niya, tila nawawala bigla ang lahat ng galit ko.
No, Lea! He caused you too much pain, 'wag kang magpadala sa emosyon mo, please lang.
"Please Lei, another chance. Please." he pleaded, more like he begged. I wiped my tears away using my palms at dahan dahan nang tumayo.
"You know what? Nagawa mo na akong lokohin noon, there's no assurance na hindi mo ako magawang lokohin ngayon." I sighed. Nandidilim na ang paningin ko, "Umalis ka na Aga, pwede? Baka ano pang magawa ko sa'yo." utos ko at tinuro pa ang pinto.
Tumingin siya sa 'kin na parang nag-mamakaawa na huwag siyang paalisin kaya ako na mismo ang unang umiwas.
"I won't give up until I have your heart again, Lei. I'll win you back. Tandaan mo 'yan." he said and with that, he walked away. Napaawang 'yong labi ko at mistulan akong natulala.
Curse you, Aga! Ano bang kasalanan ang mga nagawa ko sa dati kong buhay noon at ganito ang mga nararanasan kong kapalit ngayon?
He's always making my mind crazy!
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BINABASA MO ANG
Destinesia
Fanfiction(n) when you get to where you were intending to go, but forget why you were going there in the first place. 「 A LeAga Fanfiction 」
