serendipity

vi- disremembrance

You know

Most people want

To be remembered

After they die

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They fear oblivion

So they convince themselves

That if they leave a legacy behind them

Their lives willl be worth remembering

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But I know better

I don't claim I have done anything remarkable

I don't think my life was remarkable either

So I want to be disremembered

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I want to disremembered

With perhaps only one exception: You

Because I didn't want to change the world

But I would be lying if I said that I didn't try changing you

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Being forgotten isn't such a bad thing to me

But maybe, just maybe if I left a permanent imprint on you

Something you couldn't change if you tried

I will be remembered by the only person that ever mattered

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Even when this Precious Person

Is the one happiest to see me dead

And me and my memory buried six feet under

But it is disremembrance that is never truly forgotten

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Always coursing through your veins

And filling the crevices of your mind and the spaces between the marrow of your bones

Seeping through your every thought like blood soaks a cloth

Always there when in fact it isn't

That's what I want to happen with us

Our love won't remembered

Because I doubt it even existed in the first place

It won't be remembered, but it will be so much more