The 13th of December.

25

"Hey, your mom let me in" Kylie said poking her head round the door.

"Oh hey" I said sitting up in my bed smiling at her half heartedly.

"I brought cookies and ice-cream" She said jumping into the bed next to me and handing me a soon.

"We need movies." she said looking at me

"Basement?" I asked her

"yeah we need to get you out of this pit of mourning... It kinda smells" she winked making me laugh. We started walking down the stairs  both wrapped in blankets and holding tubs of Ben and Jerry's in our hands, it was kind of a tradition of ours whenever one of us was upset she'd have the Chocolate Brownie flavour and I'd have Baked Alaska. 

"Oh look it's out of bed, still not showered though." my mum said as she passed us on the stairs.

"Funnyyyy" I said giving her a sarcastic smile and nudge on the arm.

We got to the basement and bot sat on the sofa bed and snuggled under our blankets and started to flick through all of the movies.

"Ok, so, Im thinking either, Love Rosie, Endless Love, or Me Before You" I said looking over to kylie.

"How many sad romantic movies have you watched this week?" she asked me giving me a judgemental look.

"Umm... I'd have to with all but these three" I looked over to her making a weird face somewhere between a smile and a frown.

"Well I geuss one more won't hurt."

I smiled.

"but don't get me wrong I'm not encouraging it I just love Endless Love" she said biting her ice-cream making me cringe at the weird frozen teeth feeling you get.

"How did you not cry?" Kylie asked me after the movie ended.

"I think I've just become a bit desensitised after watching at least three a day" I said turning the lights back on now being able to see the full extent of Kylie's running mascara.

"Ok I have to say your mom was right it's about time we get you showered and dressed, school starts again in three days" she said pushing me out the door.

"Ugh please don't remind me" I said my eyes readjusting to the light again.

"You'll be fine I think human contact may be good for you right now" she laughed.

"Oh. My. God. What's Quin going to say, better yet what's she going to do?" I said turning back to Kylie briefly as we walked up the stairs.

"She won't do anything." she said making me turn around giving her a disapproving look.

"What it's Quin, she's all talk" she replied.

"Yeah that's what I'm worried about" I said as we walked into the bathroom.

Kylie sat down on the chair in the corner and went on her phone and I jumped behind the shower curtain and got out of my pyjamas before turning the shower on I washed my hair and shaved my legs, generally made myself look like a respectable teenage girl then wrapped myself in a towel and we both went into my room.

"Do I really need to get dressed? I mean its 5:30 the days practically over" I said flopping on my bed.

"Clothes. Now." Kylie replied, although I didn't admit it she was right, I knew it I just didn't want to believe it. I threw on some skinny jeans and a blue ribbed crop top. It was the autumn and I wanted to feel cosy so I opened my wardrobe and went to grab a hoodie, and staring me dead in the face was Grayson's varsity one that he had leant me from when we went to New Jersey, I  held it by the cuff and set it hoping that it would still smell like him. It did. That's when Kylie noticed this time instead of trying to get me to move past it she just came over to me and hugged me, tears started welling in my eyes and a lump formed in my throat.

"I still love him, but I can't go back" I said quietly choking on every word.

"You will be ok" she whispered back squeezing me tighter in the hug.