Whirlwind Of Emotions

Thoughts

Well I don't know what to tell you except that I do still love you and that this story is coming to an end because although I thought that writing about it would maybe help me cope with it and forget you, it has done the complete opposite thing. Now I think about you more than I ever have and everytime I write about you I relive some beautiful memory I have of you, and it hurts me more and more each day.
Although I did not text you yesterday I thought about it all day, but I was with my friends and I didn't want to be rude and divert my atention from them, even though I really was thinking about you all day they sort of helped me forget you for a while, even though they didn't realize they were doing it.
After I left my friends house, however, every single thing rushed back to my head, every single laugh of you I've ever heard, and all the nice things you've texted me, it all came back immediately and I started feeling down again. I really wish I could tell my friends about you cause maybe then they'd help me figure out feelings, but for the time being I would rather keep it a secret from everyone, well almost everyone because I do admit I've told someone, but they don't really know me so I didn't really care.
This person however told me to simply walk up to you and at least say hi, I contemplated the idea but it was just so hard. I couldn't move when i thought about it, and my breathing started to become uneven, so I simply decided against it.
I hope you did well on all of your tests from last week because if you didn't I honestly wouldn't know how to comfort you and it would break my heart. But I know you did great because you are really smart even if you don't believe me I'll keep saying it because it's true.
So I'll be back soon to finish what I have to tell you, but until then I love you with all my heart and I just wish that you knew it.